Shige.is.mine ♥♥♥

2009-11-10T23:39:00.000-08:00

If you still visit here THANKYOU! but you're slow.

This blog has been relocated to http://jadeagainsttheburgers.blogspot.com/

It's now BIGGER AND BETTER.

Link me so I can link you. &hearts.

meme

2009-03-13T09:41:00.000-07:00

I know im supposed to leave but it's the hols and i couldnt help it ♥

(1) List 16 celebrities you would have sex with without even asking questions.
(2) Put all of them in order of your lust for them. (1 is the hottest.)
(3) Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you. ->
(4) Supply photos.

= It changes weekly/monthly depending on whatever im obsessing on =

16. Wilbur Pan Wei Bo. Im in a Miss no Good dramam phase XD.

15. Dean Fujioka. Liked him since he guest starred in Corner of Love then when he starred in Miss no Good, :)

14. Mayama Akihiro (Rec by Clauds! and yeah a goood one =D)

WIN XD!!

13. Alan Luo Zhi Xiang. Liked him since i watched Corner of Love. He was so nice, yet baka, yet sweeet~

12. Tatsuya Ueda. I blame RESCUE. I always blame nice hot PVs.

11. Ikuta Toma. Nakatsu! Hana Kimi. my 1st ever JE crush.

10. Keiichiro Koyama. Wouldnt YOU want to try?

9. Miyake Ken. When i watched Gakkou E Ikou! i dont think age matters cuz look :

8. Yaotome Hikaru. since his chibi days. im NOT a pedo. im just not. what with this (below), how could i?

7. Arioka Daiki. I llike him when I watched Sensei wa Erai. He may seem younger than me, but he isnt. Thank gosh for that.

6. Raymond Lam. This is cuz i love his voice and his acting anddd oh i dunno.

he put on a lil weight but who cares. me wants =D

5. Yuichi Nakamaru. He's my fave in KATTUN and i lub his fingers. FINGERS!

4. Ryo Nishikido. Cuz i like his mean yet adorableness XD and not to mention the SEX appeal that Clauds goes on and on about. Not that im complaining XD!

3. Kazunari Ninomiya. For this moment of time. I blame the believe hair. it's just soo tempting!

= This point on it's always constant =

2. Sakurai Sho. ahaha THOSE ARMS. even tho he's like 10years older than me, he just makes me feel so.. ohmygawd. I began liking him cause NEWS was on tour and i had nothing to watch and Vicky sorta sent me alot of arashi vids so i just watched em and =D

1. Kato Shigeaki. there wasnt a need to guess right? without a heartbeat. how'd i get hooked on him? many of u probably already know =D i mean come on, it's Shige!!! woah~

more than 1 cuz i love the pretty.

YESH? i made this awhile ago and forgot about it XD

Woah this took me SO long. I didnt know it could be that hard XD

Goodbye.

2009-03-06T05:22:00.000-08:00

HEYA.

Finally rite? nah. i dont get readers anyways.
just here to post that i'll be quitting this blog for awhile.
why?
i'm lazy and have another blog as commitment.
where u ask?
i'm not telling. wanna keep it personal.
ppl who already knows, shhh =D
take is as a favour to me.
thanks!

BYE GUYS.
for now =D

Why live?

2009-02-21T08:10:00.000-08:00

Life is stupid.
I dont understand how some can be so happy and some can be so much in despair.
We live in the same world breathe the same air yet we have different fates. why is that?
who gets to choose their fate?
they say it depends on yourself. But what about the children?
do they have to make up for their parents mistake?

I live a lie.
Today i'm going to announce the truth because i dont give a damn about my life or anyones life for that matter, anymore.
My name is Jade Yeap.
I am 16 turning 17.

I have an incompetent father who's useless beyond all means.
He is supposedly accomplished in his education bearing a architecture degree/master/whatever shit he calls it, but again and again he fails.
Years and years pass, mistake after idiotic mistake,
the debts grow and grow.
now he sits there, doing nothing whilst the debts grow.

I have a stubborn mother.
She's also lax therefore, has a loose hold on money. giving excuses to herself each time she spends. But at least she works.
still, the debts grow.
She cannot accept the fact that her life is shit and we all need change.
Sacrifices, are nessasary.

I have a brother.
He has a girlfriend that takes advantage of the money he does not have.
he is also taking his degree.
The debts grow again.

I myself am not any better.
I look my family in the eye and lie. I rather spend my money on fan goods rather than help them. I admit, i offered but they didnt accept for i am a junior.
but i am guilty for splurging even though i have no right to.
I hate myself to the ends of the earth now and i dont know what else to do to help.

I have a father, a mother and a brother.
yet I have no one.
hearing my brother say "i cannot trust anyone in my family anymore" kills me.
with "this is not a family. i blame you for giving birth to me",
i dont have a family anymore.

I have never told my story to anyone not because i never wanted to.
I hoped and yearned for someone to listen,
but no one wanted to.
I have tons of friends but no one who truely cares.
I dont know what lies ahead
but for now I know,
I have no money
no friends,
no family,
no life.

I hereby give up on this so called life this is.
I just want to breathe.

15.02.09

2009-02-15T03:53:00.000-08:00

HELLO!

BYE!

im bored. ZZZ

HAPPY BDAY KUSANO!

Life

2009-02-06T22:38:00.000-08:00

I'VE NO MORE LIFE.

NO MORE INTERNET FOR ME.

HOPELESS.

USELESS.

AND PURE COLD SADNESS.

I GIVE UP.

HOPE,

DREAMS,

FRIENDS,

LIFE,

SCREW IT.

I DON'T WANT TO CARE ANYMORE.

GIVE ME A BREAK.

FRIENDS ARE OVERRATED AT TIMES.

I REALLY HAVE NO MORE ENERGY LEFT.

GIVE ME A CHANCE TO

LIVE,

LOVE,

CARE.

MY HIATUS IS ON.

I'LL ONLY BE ONLINE ON WEEKENDS.

TO UPDATE MY FANGIRLING.

OTHERS,

I GIVE UP.

I REALLY REALLY GIVE UP.

END.

Memememememee~

2009-01-24T06:54:00.000-08:00

From oystersauce87

The first seven (7) people to respond to this post will get something made by me.

This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:

- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make.
- What I create will be just for you.
- It'll be done this year (2009).
- You have no clue what it's going to be. It may be a mix CD. It may be a poem. I may write fic or make graphics. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure!
- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange.

The catch? Oh, the catch is that you have to put this in your journal as well, if you expect me to do something for you!

ps. i'm bad at prezzies but i'll try my best! =D

x-posted to LJ.
Participants
1. Salwa@Lj
2. Suraya@Lj
3. Clauds@Lj
4. Hanan@Blogger

PICUPDATES / PICSPAM

2009-01-24T03:05:00.000-08:00

Just cuz I wanted to and the stuffs, Miza requested to see em XD

Cant u SEE the amount of AWESOMENESS that is there?! O__________________O wish they were ALL mine X____X

Others. Why? Cuz Sho and ARASHI are loved. Dont worry, Shige's still mah man =D

Awww Sho is a kindie PERVE XD

So is Ohmiya~

Sakumiya anyone?

Sho riding that bug thing is SO CUTE. *huggs*

*gulps*

More Ohmiya just cuz we love em.

MAN, he looks better as a girl than i'll ever be X_X *fail*

*laaaaa~*

Apparently, they're feeling good O_O

LOOK! there's a spot between Ohmiya. GOGOOOO!

Preschooler Sho gets me EVERYTIME.

Grown up Sho takes the cake =D

One last one for us to enjoy~

OKAY! So... me being the NEWS fan that I am, *ahemSHIGEahem* how COULD i have a mini Arashi picspam without having one for NEWS?
1.. 2.. GO~

That shoutout thingy is leading my eyes to a certain bad place O_O or good place? hmmmm..

If this was the Japanese baywatch, i'd go drown NOW.

Always did love this pic..

and this.

Look at Shige... tsk tsk. No wonder u've gained weight u silly!

Tego, tego. what a bad playboy.

Is is just me or does Ryo enjoy being beside Shige? NISHIKATO! *runs*

Matching caps ftw.

Tego you slut! XDD

Koyashige RABUU!

I've always wondered. How did this,

and this,

come from this? mhhmmm...

Koyama tries too.

this pic ALWAYS gets me. Pi is like "YESH IM SO COOL IM SITTING ON A DOG!" ahah cute XD

i absolutely LOVE this pic of kei.

and THIS.

tsk tsk. WHAT ARE U DOING RYO?!

Much better. Nerds are ♥

hmmmmmm~

i absolutely LOVE this pic. *huggllee!*

*dies*

*pinch pinch*

MELON PAN + MASSU = ADORKABLENESS!

same goes for this pic. no melon pan tho.

MEMBER AI!

Is that Pi or Massu being left out?

That's one smexy whatever-it-is-he's-supposed-to-be! =DD

What were u thinking Shige.

One more for the home run and we're DONE.

I wanted to put like a few more random JE pics but... I got lazy. Live with it!

Neways,
yesterday i had merentas desa in my school. SO we had to run... and run.. and RUN.
Me being as unfit as I am, almost DIED while running.
Everyone didint think I'd actually RUN (they expected me to walk etc)
Cuz even in PJ classes, i'd sit in the background. Why? me lazy and no likey sweaty/stinky.
We had like diff classes. 1st class, 2nd and 3rd. Each consisting of around 200ppl? I'm in the 1st class according to my age.
So off we went... *insert running/panting/dying sounds here*
GUESS WHAT I PLACED? 23rd. lol.
only the top 15 get medals and top 25 get placings. so erhm.. yeahhhh.
What i regret is stopping when I wasnt tired. till now, REGRET. ahaha!
All the guys couldnt believe me getting top25. ahaha! they were so mean. *sigh*
after that, we, CRJP went to IOImall in celebration of C's bday. *insert bad food, endless walking, and being broke here*
After CRP left for tuition, I stayed behind to wait for Bena who promtly arrived after awhile.
I passed her the pamplet and cd and we watched NEWS stuffs.
My mum started scolding and we all started panicing and blaaahh.
=end of day=

TODAY, my legs HURT.
not ONLY my legs. MY WHOLE BODY HURTS.
damn. seriously, OUCH.

AWESOMENESS

2009-01-21T22:59:00.000-08:00

Currently eating lots and lots of CHOCO.

I'm posting late as usual again. So i'mma cut it short and talk about 2 events.

1. Last Saturday me and Bena and Rebecca hung out at KLCC for a mini fan gathering!
IT WAS CHO FUN. After awhile, a few more fans joined us and we had SUSHI.
we sat at that SUSHI place for like, 5 hours? and then we headed to starbucks to continue sitting. AHAHA! We were all mad. like talking about NEWS non stop on and on and onnn. not that i'm complaining! haha! I glad i dragged my bestie Rebecca into the fandom! XDD

2. YESTERDAY I HAD THE BEST THING EVER. It started the day before Yesterday really.
I came home finding a familier red cardboard thingy on the door. The postman slipped it in~ I've got MAIL! so yesterday I bribed my dad with Chicken Rice to drive me to that really-hard-to-find post office and collect my mail. There was 2 ppl queing up when i got there. I was pretty impatient at that time since I sorta guess what was installed. So i passed my IC (identification Card) and that red paper to the man behind the counter. After searching high and low, he came back with a PINK, yes PINK envolope. I FLAILED IN MY HEART. FLAILED LIKE NO TOMORROW. I couldnt help it, It was my 1st time! I happily brought the package back home with my dad asking me weird questions. LOL.

I OPENED IT THE MOMENT I REACHED HOME.
carefully tearing the cellophane tape off.
1. Color RE (for Bena)
2. NEWS Pamplet (for Bena)
3. Shige photoset
4. News Winter Diamond Party HPStrap
5. A VERY AWESOME AWESOME LOOKING SHIGE UCHIWA. NWDP.
I cant stop FLAILINGG!! I'm sooooooooooooooo happpyyy!!
I totally regret not getting the pamplet. IT LOOKED SO AWESOME O_O Arrgghh screw me for being so broke!

It's my 1st time getting anything! what do u expect!! XDD

Okay, that's all for now. FOR NOW =D

This took awhile

2009-01-15T04:32:00.000-08:00

Currently : Having a Mago Mago Arashi marathon =D

I honestly shouldnt be doing this seeing as it's my SPM year and all.. but I wouldnt wanna let a whole series of downloaded ARASHI VIDEOS go to waste now would I? I think this time i'll delete everything so i wont be tempted to back track and watch them again. SORRY TO WHOEVER WANTS TO GRAB THEM FROM ME! Mainly, Rebecca and Ruby *bows*

I dont blog anymore. My last real blog post was since forever.
I'm getting pissed off with the things I needa do for school. It's somehow taking over my life.
Mr. Rajan (our eng teacher for THE SECOND YEAR RUNNING damn) ask us to write journals! oh diddly doo. Like THE GREAT JADE STUDENT BY DAY, SUPERWOMEN BY NIGHT has ANYTHING interesting to freaking write about every single lil boring day of my sad pathetic life. Okay, i'm not as mad as I sound but I am a lil annoyed by the fact i've to write about the nothingness that I do everyday. Seeing as i spend every waking free time (whether I really have free time or not) HERE in front of my eye-distorting computer. Oh joy.

What else~
I've been miraculously elected VP of the English society. I wanted to do it for the marks yes, but i've no idea HOW to do it in the 1st place. The voting was rigged, most of my friends are in the English Society. annnd guess just WHO is that certain someone that just so happens to be the President? none other than the infamous Calvin Ng. AHAAH i'm exaggerating SO much XD

I bought a new sport shoooe. Reebok or however you spell it. I'm too lazy to care. I've been needing a sport shoe since I dont remember when and i'm excited! LOL!! But somehow, it's white + pink. YES U READ CORRECTLY, PINK GIRLY TEGOSHI PINK.

I cant even WAIT for this saturday! 2more days to gooo!
Why? I'm gonna go out with Bena again! and my loveleh Rebecca Ng is going too! which makes the fun x100 more! cause I LUB her. that's why.
We're going to KLCC.
They're both Ohno fans, VS me, the Sho fan (only speaking of Arashi, Shige is still my ichiban)
It just isn't fair. I cant let them win. COME ON MSIAN SHO FANS. SHOW UR FACES! lol.

should x-post this to my lj. Maybe I will? hmmm~

Taggs.

2009-01-06T07:07:00.000-08:00

I Should

1. Gelaran yang kamu beri pada orang yang tag kamu.
-Nadiiaaaaaaaaa! aka the dark lord?

2. Nyatakan keistimewaan orang yang beri kamu tag ini
-She as awesome as me? XDD jkjk. She's awesome, i'm plain.

3. Berikan 3 peristiwa manis dan pahit yang berlaku antara kamu dan dia
- Manis :
bwhaha! She called me when I was in Genting with 2 other screaming girls (hanan and haru-chan) and it was pure JOY. =D
- Pahit: takde pun~

4. Kamu mahu dia jadi apa untuk kamu?
- Pikachu ♥ lol no XD I want her to be a friend that never forgets me like I'll never forget her.

5. Nasihat kamu kepada dia
- DONT MIX WITH HANAN TOO MUCH! U'll be infected! jkjk XD

6. Sayang/suka/meluat/benci dia??
- of course i LUB her ♥

7. Kenapa?? (merujuk soalan no.6)
- Cuz she's awesome. and she knows it XD

8. Tag ini ingin ditujukan kepada org yang tertera di bawah
-HANAN!
- Rebecca!
-Michelle?
-Miza (if u want to =D)

~.~

Bold the statements that are true to you. Italicize the statements that you wish are true. Tag three people.

1) I miss somebody right now.
2) I do not watch TV these days.
3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
4) I love to play video games.
5) I have tried marijuana.
6) I have been in a threesome.
7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
8) I have changed mentally over the last year.
9) I curse.
10) I’m totally smart.
11) I’ve broken someone’s bones.
12) I’m paranoid sometimes.
13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
14) I need money right now.
15) I love sushi.
16) I talk really, really fast.
17) I have long hair.
18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
19) I have at least one sibling.
20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
21) I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
22) I like the way I look.
23) I am usually pessimistic.
24) I have a lot of mood swings.
25) I have a hidden talent.
26) I’m always hyper.
27) I have a lot of friends.
28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.
29) I enjoy talking on the phone.
30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
31) I love to shop.
32) Enjoy window shopping.
33) I would rather shop than eat.
34) I don’t hate anyone.
35) I’m a pretty good dancer.
36) I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
37) I have a cell phone.
38) I believe in God.
39) I am an adrenaline junkie.
40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.
41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
42) I’ve rejected someone before.
43) want to have children in the future.
44) I have changed a diaper before.
45) I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
46) I’m not allergic to anything.
47) I have a lot to learn.
48) I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
49) I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
50) I have tried alcohol before.
51) I own the South Park movie.
52) I would die for my best friend.
53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
58) I am happy at this moment!
59) I’m obsessed with girls/guys.
60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
61) I study for tests most of the time.
62) I am comfortable with who I am right now.
63) I have more than just my ears pierced.
64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.
65) I have jumped off a bridge.
66) I love sea turtles.
67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
68) I plan on achieving a major goal & dream.
69) I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
70) I hate office jobs.
71) I love sci-fi movies.
72) I think water rules.
73) I went college out of state.
74) I like sausages.
75) I love kisses.
76) I fall for the worst people.
77) I adore bright colours.
78) I can’t live without black eyeliner.
79) I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
80) I usually like covers better than originals.
81) I can pick up things with my toes.
82) I can whistle.
83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
84) I have ridden/owned a horse.
85) I still have every journal I’ve written in.
86) I can’t stick to a diet.
87) I talk in my sleep.
88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
89) I have jazz in my blood.
90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
91) I wear a toe ring.
92) I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
93) I am a caffeine junkie.
94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
95) I have been to over 15 conventions.
96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
97) I’m an artist.
98) I only clean my room when necessary.
99) I like a person of the same sex.
100) I love being happy.

Jadey tags,
Rebecca,
Agnes,
Clauds,
Hanan,
Claire,
Qinqin,
Christine.

Rememberance

2009-01-03T20:20:00.000-08:00

And so the new year arrives.
My cbox is full of lovely spammeth by my lovely flist but i've yet the time to reply them. Should get to it right now.
I'm so backed up with mail, it isnt even funny.

They officially left this morning.
I still cant believe it. They came and left THAT fast? there goes the jigglies.
About 8hours ago my house was still so full, so noisy, so thrilling.
Now it's filled with the sounds of my keyboard and my mum's random babbling n her not-so-peaceful sleep.
I can HEAR myself THINK and that's never a good thing.

The impact.
- I now have a funny american accent.
- I know who Uly and Leo are!
- I am weirded out by american school social networks
- I have nice relatives halfway across the world
- Leo loves my Monkey-chan thus me calling him a sissy. (Don't worreh, I still love you.)
- Uly goes emo at random times and loves checking girls out.
- Leo can't stop talking about surprise butt sex and u dont wanna know what it is.
- I think i gained SO much weight cuz we ate too much.
- The guilt I feel for not making their stay better/more interesting.
- Jiggly is a real word in ULYLEOland.
- PWNED, FAIL, and EPIC are pemarnent words in my vocab.
(the list would just continue if I didnt refrain myself)

I WILL go to NYC one day.
Hopefully end of this year or beginning of the next.
Till then, you know I love u guys ♥

-end of relative post!-
on to the OL world.
hokey, I miss my OL frens!

HANAN!
u didnt call me in the end! you said u wooooould.

Nadia~
HUHUUU! You guys were so wild the other day ♥♥♥ so loved!

Claire?
I dunno what's up but something is with us.

QIQI and Chirstine
I JUST MISS U GUYS. My CR fails thus, I fail too.

Clauds.
Super Clauds! everytime we're OL, we have to go off soon! why are we both so busy?!

Jemae ^^
It's just different somehow. I miss everything.

Rebecca
You're not really my OL fren (real life ♥) but i still miss you and ur ohno spazz!

The ppl i RARELY talk to anymore but SO want to.
Charm, Alex, J-kun, Keilani, Angela, Agnes, Bena, Vicky, Nurul, Rachel, Jennifer, JJ, Eien and everyone else.
We either grew apart, are too busy or just fail to talk.
I wanna talk to YOU this 2009 =D
(ps, If i fail to remember you, feel free to hunt me down and burn my underwear XD)

well, technically i've like TONS more to say about this holiday (american relatives or not) but you ALL know me and how lazy I am.
*still procrastinating the replying of mails*

Welcome

2008-12-29T07:58:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, on the whatever date it was, my aunt from USA who i havent seen for 13 years (or so i've been told) came to visit! Or should I say she came back to her hometown.
Together with her, she brought 8other people and not ONE was younger than me =D ahhh I feel so awesome XD

so she came, and we picked her up at the airport holding 2 bags of ever-so-yummy BA GUA!
so yuh, we drove them here in 3 cars. 9 ppl can have SO much luggage. so 3 cars was barely enough. come here to mah lovely messy home, they packed everything they needed for a one-day Singapore trip and we went to my grandma's house 1st.

After that my uncle, Tokyo (ref to my last post? or last last? or maybe i didnt saay. i've an uncle nicknamed tokyo XD) bought us ALL dinner and after that coffee? he's too rich for his own good. and talks too much. I've heard the so-called-EPIC stories a million times.

neways, after that we drove everyone (in 4 cars) to KL Central to take a 10hour long train to Singapore. bwahahah~ 10 hour long. that's seriously SAD. I didnt go if u havent' noticed yet.

so they're there now. (actually on their way back [another 10hour long journey] sad)
but today, i went OUT! at 1st me went to school and my nose murdered me. seriously O_O
it was RUNNY and PAIN and ITCHY and those 3 do NOT go together.
I had to help out in school and it was PMR result day and i saw ppl cry. aww poor babies.
PS, pmr aint nothing compared to form 4 yo! aye?
after that i went home and had luch with Ruby. After that we went to MV! and it was such a RUSH.
We watched Australia. the story went on FOREVER. it just wouldnt end! lol! 2 and a half hours.
it was a SERIOUS yet strangely funny. oddd ne?
btw, ME RUBY EIJANE and TIANHUI went. It was sort of a goodbye thingy.
I WILL MISS HER SO MUCHHH!
we got back at around 7? and i had dinner with Ruby and she came over and we watched our awesome NINO BLUSH and FTW it couldnt be any cuter.

She went home at around 10?
that's all!

ohhh yeaahh!
Hanan received my package! I WAS SO HAPPY!
coincidentally, i was CHATTING with her on MSN when the package arrived. weird yet FUN!
HANAN, i hope u REALLY like it and u're not just saying it!
ILYSM! =D

Hanan tried calling me many times today but sadly my phone was in Singapore with my US aunt. UGGHH!
the ONE day my phone isnt with me is the ONE day she calls! TALK ABOUT SAAADD!
arghh *kicks ground*
call me tom morning okay? =DDD

I AM SO PISSED.

2008-12-27T06:53:00.000-08:00

Well, for those who dont know, I really REALLY hate my brother.
Hate is such a strong word but, I just don't know what other word explains this feeling i have.

To be fair, my brother really wasnt the brother I had a year ago.
My brother used to care.
Now, my brother cares alright.. about HIMSELF and that bit** he calls a girlfriend.
If my brother SOMEHOW finds my blog and reads this post, I'd be so damn ass happy.
Fuc* them all.
If he finds it, i'll at all be able to be honest and not have to pretend i like those idiots.

I remember Fang Shen once asked me,
"How do u stay so hype and cheerful all the time? i'm so envious of you"
YEAH RITE. If that's so, the world would be christmas tree shaped.

How dare that idiot, friggin walk out on us when we had no money and go to my dad who supposedly had money at that time? And now that the money resource is out there, he come running back here like the greedy asshole he is.
FINE. so he IS my mum's son and he IS my brother.
I'll give him a chance right?
So we went shopping and as the normal poor shyt family does, we buy what we NEED and nothing else. So we bought daily needs like shampoo, blaahh, etc. He needed them too. OHKAY why dont u ask from the person you're living with u idiot.
Nvm that, shampoo facial wash DEODORANT (which is NOT something poor ppl have the luxury to buy) but still NVM.
what truly PISSED me friggin OFF was the fact that he had the NERVE to friggin buy junk food. I mean YOU COULD FRIGGING LIVE WITHOUT THAT! If u want it pay for ur frigging self!
Even me, JADE the one who stood by my mum have been buying those stuffs for SO long. why? cuz i dont want to friggin WASTE her money! but EVERY FRIGGING SHITTY time he comes back, he BUYS SO MUCH junk food. and WHO pays? oh right, the mother he left behind and made cry everynight for a month.
FUC* THIS SHIT.

But to hell with it since my MUM herself doesnt mind. WHY? Cuz he's the golden child that's why. SCREW IT MAN. What the hell am I even here for if all HE needs to do is come home and ask for money and fu*k- JUNK FOOD.
WHY do I bother working so hard? Doing chores? studying? FU*KKIN LISTEN TO UR DAILY RAMBLINGS ABOUT WORK?!
whenever HE comes home, I get treated like a freakking outsider. I AM UR FRIGGING DAUGHTER.
Oh u guys say i changed huh? WHY THE FU*CK IS THAT?!
WHOSE DAMN FAULT IS THAT?!
FU*CK THE SHYTS.
I give up. I hate this.
And u guys ask me why i did badly in my last test.
I FRIGGING GAVE UP.
why do i wanna work hard if i aint gonna be acknowledged?

HAH.
He's bad huh? HIS BIATCH OF A GF IS FRIGGIN WORSE.
Here's ONE of the many stupid things.
My aunt's birthday. WHO INVITED HER? Nvm she came.
We ate out obviously. We were TRYING to keep the bill under control cuz of our you-know-what condition. I ordered the cheapest thing. I even skipped DRINKS cuz i didnt wanna use too much money.
THAT FU*CKER had the NERVE to order what?!
SALMON. oh rite. YOU LIL BIT*CH. It was the most expensive thing on the bill.
So i decided to do something about it. My aunt asked me to check the bill, SO I DID.
HAH. I am so friggin PROUD of myslef for doing this.
You know what I did? I said just LOUD enough for HER to hear,
"OWH THE SALMON IS THE MOST EXPENSIVE THING ON THE BILL!"
Heck yeah. And my brother went all noble and said he'd pay for her. But till now, TWO months later, he hasnt paid.
The moral of the story? DONT ASK BIT*CHES TO FAMILY DINNERS.

Damn goodie FAKE ass. Get out of my life and frigging STOP corrupting my brother before i stalk you and pluck ur eyes out. SEE IF HE'D WANT U THEN.

UH I AM SO PISSED!
Now i rarely talk to my bro.
I didnt even wish him on his birthday and I've no regret whatsoever.

I went to the christmas countdown thing in my aunt's house and he went too. and HER. uhhh.
HE DARED TO SAY "where's my christmas gift?" FU*CK THAT MAN.
what about MINE? u're my ELDER bro and guess what?! U FRIGGING OWE ME A BDAY ONE TOO! EVEN AFTER U FRIGGIN PROMISED ME.

And u dare say i've changed. look in the mirror. Becareful or it'll BREAK u idiot.

Sleepover spazz

2008-12-25T23:10:00.001-08:00

I've a sudden urge to blog! XD

I finished watching Ryuusei yesterday and i'm just too speechless XD
Then today I moved on to random Arashi shows that I Dl-ed quite sometime ago and VSarashi and AnS NEVER fails to make me laugh like an idiot in front of the com. Thank GOSH im alone.

Now I'm watching Code Blue. just done with ep1 and i'm proud to say, i dont hate pi's character... YET =D

now, I wanna spazz about my sleepovers.
The 1st one was... last.. saturday was it? HAI!
We were in Subang's Holiday Villa Hotel and in a SUITE. I only had to pay 20bucks? wow. that's INCLUSIVE of food some more. I guess everyone there went easy on me cuz I'm the youngest and the most fandorable! (rite XD)
We spent the whole time spazzing over Arashi and NEWS and watching concerts on thier ORIGINAL dvds. damn~ I'm jealous. but what i was MOST jealous of was.. THIS.

yes. The OMGhotness of their mini ichiwas from TIME con last year. FTW I'mma steal from her. lol~ There was also a Koyama and Ryo uchiwa present but.. ARASHI RITE? lol
Thanks to Vicky, Bena, Nurul and EVERYONE there who let me join even tho i was a newbie =D

After that... monday! I went to my dear dear darrrling Rebecca's house =D
We watched random Arashi clips, shows, DRAMA.
It was all about the Arashi man.
Now, Rebecca Ng officially LOVES Ohnoman. but, who doesn't right?
Here's how it went, we watched some funny things on youtube. Ohno went "se no- gomen ne!" and "YOU! kekkon-something blaahh" as to say You marry me. and Rebecca fell tumbly in love =D rite Rebecca?
After that we watched YAMADA TARO DVD watched all 10eps straight and I down right FLAILED my arsh off with Sho XD, admired Nino's 'kitty' smile annndd something crazy happened.
In the last episode, OHNO MAN APPEARED! (I didn't even KNOW until those trailer shots appeared in the 9th ep) sooo... when he appeared in the trailer shot, me and Rebecca SCREAMED!! we were like "OHNOOOOOOOOOOO!!!" at the same exact moment regradless of the fact her mum and bro were looking at us like weirdoes. XD
When he appeared, OMG Isnt he just a bunch of CUTE?! argh! haha! Rebecca just HAD to rewind and watch that part again. ne Rebecca?
se no- gomen ne! ♥♥♥

Oh how Ohno makes an impact.

after that, we watched a lil this. a lil that and chatted. slept at 4? woke up at 6? torture! XD haha! but bundles of fun included.
I MISS JOO BECCA! XD

After watching Yamada Taro, I watched Ryuusei no Kizuna rite? OMG how much Nino love! It's not possible for me NOT to fall in love with him. Especially in the last ep where he cried. I WANNA HUG HIM! argh~ But still, my loves go to SHIGE. and occasionally Sho. but lets keep that lil secret from Shige ne? I cant step on too many boats! rite? lol~

My aunt is visiting from USA next week and therefore i shall be BUSY!
so i'll watch all the stuff i need now to make up for that. MATANE!

Merry Christmas

2008-12-24T23:05:00.000-08:00

Hellooo my approximately ZERO readers.
u should've noticed my AWESOME new layout again and this time it really is AWESOME and perfect. *bows* thank you Hanchan! =D

soo, today is Christmas so..
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
thxx to everyone who wished me.

Sorry for not blogging much, i've been ridiculously busy and it ain't that fun at times XD.
yesterday when i was going to my aunt's house for a countdown,
i stepped out my house (I live in an apartment/condo place so there's a hallway) and i saw YAP WAI KIT. he freaked me out good. I was like O___O, that. "YAP WAI KAI!? what are u doing here?!" his aunt lives on the SAME floor as me XD weiirdd. small world.

I was chatting with Heather all afternoon yesterday. MUCHES OF FUN XD
she came up with this.
There once was a girl who really liked Shige, her name was Jadey and she liked to eat piggies,
She had a friend whos name was heather, they cheated on NEWS with Arashi together,
Heather and Jadey are huge pervs, they like talking about Ohno's curves,
For hours and hours they talked away, cuz Ero things make anyone's day!
and yeah, we're both mad =D

anyways, im lazy again. so... BYE! merry christmas =D

OMG NO.

2008-12-16T07:11:00.000-08:00

I'm too lazy to blog about anything so uh here.

look at this and THIS.
seriously, this is NOT right dude. WHY WHY WHYY!? *cries* notice the identical-ness of the 1st 2? WTF. NUUUUUU!! SHIGEMAN SAVE ME!
taskete kudasai.

we met =D

2008-12-14T04:39:00.000-08:00

Currently deleting useless junk that my dad flooded the computer with. *prays not to uninstall anything importand and essential*

HOKEY!
late wed? was myreunion gathering.
NORMAL.

that's all.

yesterday on the other hand, was OMFG freakking awesome =D maybe cuz i'm new to these things.
a lil catch up on my life =D
Me love NEWS but now falling in love with Arashi (DUH)
Yesterday was supposedly me me, Bena and Vicky =D buutt many people came! it's not a bad thing at all tho~ So.. ended up 11 ppl was there? and 9/11 was ARASHI fans. mainly, the ever kawaii baka, Aiba ♥. In arashi my fave is SHO SAKURAI. omg HOT HOT HOT *flail*
His abs are so OMG OMG OMG. gimme a piece of that.
okay, i should shut up about Sho now =D
Even tho i like Arashi and all, i was mainly a NEWS fan and know MUCH about NEWS and lil about ARASHI so obviously I was a lil stranded. But Bena saved me =D
She's a NEWS fan, KOYAMA KEIICHIRO to be exactly. So we get along cuz we make Koyashige and we dont fight for our Ichibans.
I'm so jealous of Bena! She's going to get to SEE them LIVE in the dome concert OMG no fair! lol
but she worked hard for it so.. uh yeah.
anyways, we took some purikura and went to 4 diff restaurents that day O__O yesh i AM fat.
i would like to thank EVERYONE who went for making me so happy that day =D
THANKS GUYS =D
and thanks for sharing more JE love. *applaud*

Today i had.. ADDMATH tuition which I fail cuz i totally forgot evehraythang. it's not funny. I was lost the whole 2 hours. well, not really cuz i'm smart and catch up fast. LMAO. no XD
I DUN WANNA GO ANYMORE! so lazy! my hols is running out and i dun wanna spend my freakking time going there and doing the damned HWs. *shrugs*
and PLUS i've to freakking clean my room. I mean it's not dirty, it's just messy and more like a study room than a bedroom cuz i dont sleep there.
When aunt Joanne comes, she'll be like, O_____O if she sees it in this condition =D
so i've got to clean it for her. not that i mind cleaning FOR her just that I'mma pig and when i clean, i loose stuffs. (just like mah man Kato Shigeaki ♥)
SO MESSY! MY ROOM! oh well XD

nth else ja matta =D

Outings/Ramblings.

2008-12-08T00:38:00.000-08:00

Currently worried about having not enough orders. *spazz*

Helloo peeps!

let me get this lil thing over with 1st.
what is this? SOME1 apparently wanted to be featured in mah awesome blog so here goes.
OMY IS A PIGGIE DAMN STRAIGHT AND OWES ME STARBUCKS.
end of promotion =D enjoy OMY.
ps, i call him OMY cuuuzzz he doesnt want to tell me how to spell his name so i can double check. even tho i've asked Michelle and therefore already know =P

on to the real blog post!
As the *looks in crowd* zero ppl of u who have been reading my blog,
my last post stated that i've been selling NEWS CON GOODS and etc etc etc, seriously. I'm selling sick cheap and anyone who wants to buy em, look me up cuz i needa get rid of some stuff =D okay? PWEASE.
*looks innocently into u peepah's eyes*
OR if u have any NEWS/JE die hard fans (even ANY JAPANESE band), point them to my direction please =D ONEGAI! ARIGATOU.

*huggles Ohno*
*huggles Sho*
WAIT WHAT ABOUT MY SHIGE!?
*double huggles Shige*
ahh yes.
i've nth to talk about apparently.

OH YES,
to all SMJK (C) St Teresa students of year 04',
there will be a GATHERING in Midvally on the 10th of December.
We'll be meeting up in front of Mcdonalds TOP FLOOR at 12pm.
I'll most probably be ther early cuz i've some errands to run in KL central and there. So if u're early, feel free to look me up.
my post today seems to be super animated ne?

okay next occation,
I'm SUPER HAPPY that i'll FINALLY be meeting Bena and Vicky =D
They're alot older than me but i think i'm older than them in the upper department cuz my mind is OLD and it ROTS and it smells like brains! erm yeah.
SATURDAY HAYATE!
We'll be heading to chinatown, KlCC that area so if u're there at those times, look me up =D
So awesome that Bena can drive so i dun have to take the bloody trains. Don't get me wrong, I ♥ public transport but the fees, it kills! i DO have to take a bus to IOI 1st tho~

after that,
on the 21st of December, JE FANMEETING and POPRAINBOW YEAR END PARTY. yesh.
It'll cost me a whopping RM30 bucks dude. but i missed the last one so.. i guess i have to since i keep ffk-ing my OL frens. *bows* sorry! i can't help if i'm hopelessly broke. lolz.

after that party i'll be heading over to Rebecca Ng's house to have a YAMADA TARO MARATHON and u just KNOW when u put 1 crazy CRAZY fangirl with one drama addict, lack of sleep (midnite marathon), and NINO SHO ON DVD, it's be some sort of mayhem. do look forward to what i have to say about that later =D

*spazz* that's about it i think! well, actually i've got lots more to say but i'm lazy and MY SHOW IS STARTING ON TV so uh buhbye! *waves*

BUY FROM ME PWEASE?

2008-12-07T07:44:00.000-08:00

NEWS CON GOODS ANYONE? OR NEWS/KATTUN/ARASHI/ANYFORM OF JE CDS ANYONE? I'M DESPERATE. COME ON PEEPAH. GIVE ME A BREAK. IT'S LIKE WTF CHEAP.

Just cuz i wanted to do it.

2008-12-05T03:27:00.001-08:00

Go here, type in your answer and get the 1st meaning that comes up. seems like fun doesn't it?

Personal comments are in red.

1) Your name?
→ Jade

The best guitarist in the world
The new word for God
Fuuyeah. That's what i'm talking about.

2) Your age?

→16

Legal age for fucking in the UK.
erm.. suuureee XD

3) One of your Friends

→ Rebecca

The name Rebecca origionated from the daughter of Goddess of Beauty! She wanted to bring one and only beauty to brighten the world and she decided to name her REBECCA, the Shining Star!
See Rebecca? I told u you were pretty!

4) What should you be doing?

→Studying

An excuse you give your friends when you want to stay home alone and masturbate. Also known as 'reading' 'cleaning your room' or writing a term paper.
AHAHAHAHA! i lol-ed at this. Seriously, what?

5) Favorite color?

→ Blue

The hue of the portion of the visible spectrum lying between green and indigo, evoked in a human observer by radiant energy with wavelengths of approximately 420 to 490 nanometers.

6) Birth place?

→ Subang

isn't defined yet.
*ZZZ*

7) Month of your birthday?

→ Sepetember

a month with a nice temperature and everything but its when school starts :(
haha~ for me it's when school is gonna have finals but sure.

8) Last person you talked to?

→ Mama

a very attractive woman
MOMMY IS HOT! *hides*

9) What did you last drink?

→ Soup

A liquid food that usually has meats (chicken, turkey, etc), noodles, vegetables, herbs etc. Different kinds inclde Minestrone, Clam Chowder (comes in Manhattan, New England, and Rhode Island form), and tomato.

10) Your nickname?

→ Jadey, Jadee, Jadeh

Jadey - isn't defined yet
Jadee - crazy fat black male. So this is what Rebecca thinks of me.. explains alot huh?
Jadeh - isn't defined yet

Okayy. that was pretty lame butt i'mma tagg ppl anyways.
1. CLAUDS - cuz i'm talking to her now =P
2. Rebecca - obvious reasons
3. Michelle - she seems too free.
4. Agnes! - Cuz she's going to Japan soon and it aint no fait PLUS, she's on MC today =P
5. Hanan - *evil laughs*

That's it mah peepps!

WTH IS THIS?

2008-12-03T08:51:00.000-08:00

All I have to say is

- 1 plate of fried beehoon
- cut fruits (lil papaya, watermelon and honeydew)
- 20km on cycling machine
- 2 rounds around car park (not even 5 min ZZZ)
- 20 laps of swimming
- 80 sit ups
- some reckless dancing (more like sotong-ing)
- 1 cup of coffee
- juggles of water excludingewwwpool water
- aimless stretching
all that and I gained weight? If this is supposed to make sense, throw me off a building now.
Thank you.

I really deserve something. *winksNEWSCONGOODSwinks* if only. SPAZZ.

Complains?

2008-12-02T21:15:00.000-08:00

Currently : Spazzing

spazz is my new favourite word! even though i dunno what it means *ahem*
Laziness really SUCKS man.
I'm shit serious. =.= yesterday I stayed up till 5am HOPING that i would study but nooo~ The internet was too tempting for a 16 year-old geek. baah~
and today, i STILL don't wanna study. Wha?

Today is a eventless day! Means no hecticness.
But what's Jadey without a lil drama? So i'mma TRY to get into the Gym today.
IF the guards let me. If not, i'll just go swimming AGAIN. it's cold dude!
Yesterday was freezing!

BWHAHAA I have blog spammers!
3 of em! and i haven't replied to any of them~
Some went out of the cbox already XD
*proud* lol!!
ughh i'm bored. Dragging my time before i've to go to the gym laazeehh i teelll yerh all!

I wanna watch my Yamada Taro dude.
WHY does mah stooppid remote have to beh so darn stooopid?
man.

This is more like a complain post isnt it? LOL

Some1 PWEASE make me study!
and exercise!
and not eat so darn much!
baah~

Shopping without $$ is sad.

2008-12-02T04:07:00.000-08:00

Currently watching : Ryusei to Kizuna ep6.

fufufuuu~ I LOVE THIS SHOW. it has a sense of idiocracy yet sooo much suspence! and the fact that Nino and Ryo are in it makes it all the more awesome XD

Boy did much happen this week!
Thursday I went to MV to get my Shige Calendar tin and it make me SO happy!
THANK YOU MIZA!

After that I was pretty much alone so Miza asked me to join her and her friends to watch Twilight.
I was weary at 1st thinking I would spoil their fun but I joined anyways. Turns out they're all manga lovers and SO friendly! awesome people =D i wasn't bored at all! but I dunno if i can say the same for them. i AM a boring person after all.

Neways, Friday was my bro + my cousin birthday dinner. But before than my cousin and her 2 other friends came here to swim and i had to babysit. I didn'tr eally mind. i used to time to study some Jap! i made a TINY tiny progress. =D
After that my aunt fetched us to 1 Utama and i nearly lose my cousin and her friends. They were SUPPOSED to wait in popular but noooo~ they had to wonder off and i didn't have her hp number. Imagine my panic! baaaah~
After that was dinner and i didn't really talk to my bro the whole time. Not like i wanted to anyways. SHE was there after all.
Finshed dinner I went to my friends house for a 2day 2night sleepover. We got lost on the way and my bro pissed off. SO WHAT.

The next day, we wondered from Crystals house to the busstop and I lead the way to the wrong bus and we ended up in Chinatown instead of times square. BUT IT WAS A GOOD THING!
U know whyyyy? CUZ ME BOUGHT YAMADA TARO. bwahah. Sho and Nino LOVE ♥♥♥
I regret buying Shabake really. It's the same price as Code Blue! ZZZ.
and Koizora!
and Kurosagi!
Ruby bought Kurosagi. She's come over to the dark side~ and it's all my fault XD
I wanted to buy Kurosagi tho~
it was also Rebecca's birthday that day!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY REBECKY!

Sunday was spent aimlessly. I went back home from Crys's house and online~
DUH. what else is there to do?

Monday, yesterday,
I went to see mah loveleh REBECCAAAA! wee~~
It was Pearl's Birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEARL!
I went to the bank 1st and was late meeting rebecky cuz there were a kazillion peepah there and that's no fun. I DID meet binbin there XD Uwaahh~ I missed him!
when i finally got to becca, we wondered aimlessly around IOI mall. serious emphasis on AIMLESSLY. We passed this certain goldsmith shop like a hundred times and guess who was working in it? KIAN LEONG! and he obviously thinks i have a crush on him now. i don't! baahh~ whatever.
I was craving for starbucks but couldnt afford it cuz i belanja-ed Rebecca lunch! and a sundae ice-cream from McD's. More worth my $$! It's Becca afterall XD
I gave her the best batch of HARD ROCK cookies to prove that i DID try to bake for her.
LOL. I still want my Shigedoll becca!

that was all my shopping experiences.
Other things that happened. hmm~
-Crys's lil sis (age 3) is a POSER! bwahaha she's vain and took 100 pics of herself with my phone (yes she knows how to 'zi pai' at the mere age of 3 =.=)!! I deleted most of them cuz she has short hands thus causing most of the pics to be of her nose or eyes or random things XD
-I'm too broke for words.
-I'm on house arrest cuz i've been going out too much (aka spending too much moneh) so my mum won't let me go out anymore this year.
but I still needa pan an outing with Tian Hui~ Cuz she's moving/changing schools next year! DAMMMN!! and on the 21st i'm sooo going to a fan meeting and DRAGGING rebecca along if i have to! HEAR THAT REBECCA?!
bwahaah *smirk*
-Rebecca is rich~! and that's a miracle.

what else? nth much i guess. now for the pics!
ahh yes. i remember what to say liao.
I SAW SO MANY JE MAGS!
Ryo's FINEBOYS cover mag. ishh.
ARASHI's 10th anniversary Popolo mag.
Arashi on some ther mag.
Pacific DVD in Rockcorner.
Summertime and Taiyou no Namida in Rockcorner.
DARN MY EMPTY WALLET. SCREW YOU! BE FULLL WHY DON'T YEAH!?
jyaahh on with the picspam =D

Look at all the Japanese mags! Omg. HOT GUYS! except for the Erika Toda one. Hot Girl! that ones was taken for Han-chan XD

BAAHH! I WANT ALL THESE NOW!

Older pics that never got around to posting.

The Starbucks Michelle bought me!

Me and mah classmates XD

Mah room wall poster XD

FOR HANCHAN! this is the mag cover. BUY THIS. LOOK FOR THIS.

another one for Han-chan. XD hhaha XD inside joke~

That's all for now. If i go on, i won't stop!
ahhh~ BTW, to all the no1 who reads mah blog (apparently only Rebecca reads mah blog i think ZZZ), I'm have a goal to lose 3kgs this month! so HELP ME! yorushiku! XD
ganbateeh Jadey~!

Buhbye~

Riidda month!

2008-11-25T09:19:00.000-08:00

Currently watching : Ep1 of himitsu no Arashi.

I'm seriously addicted to ARASHI. they're just so freakking awesome XD
my connection has been depressing lately and it really doesn't help one fawn over amazing Arashi member-ai-ness.
NINO IS FREAKKING AWESOME. I watched this scardy-cat thingy and he loss. He's a whimp and such a cute one at that! XD I seriously thought Aiba would lose tho~ I wanna watch part 2 but it's er.. 2am and therefore not safe to watch scary stuff especially after i watched ghost whisperer just know. Seriously, i watch it everyweek and freak myself out but i keep watching it. It's addictive. And jennifer love hewit (is that how u spell it?) is pretty =D

Uh. i typed half way and went into arashi land. Himitsu no Arashi is not that funny but it's interesting! aahhh Ohno XD
OH BTW, since it's 2am, I THINK it's
Oh-chan's Bday! Happy birthday Riidda~
and also to my nii-chan. Happy Birthday.
Even though I'm not really fond of u and you-know-who now, doesn't mean I don't care about my brother. (although i DID almost forget his bday =P)

I'm back to my normal blogskin. why? long story XD

I wanted to tell sooo many things but HnA ep1 got me boggle minded and i forgot most of it. bare with me =P.
I'm going to Crystal's house on Thursday night for a sleepover. Ruby's going too. Unfortunately Pearl is missing. like seriously, she aint replying any of us. Sometimes i'm annoyed by her irresponsible attitude. Whatever.
And Thrusday morning i'll be mall hopping, ALONE. Why alone? cuz i'm a sad sad person. it's sad right? I always found going shopping alone to be horribly sad. lol but instead my mum LOVES doing that. She always finds me a bother when i go with her. haahah~ we're SO diff.

does this look at all lala to you? hmmm~ Alex said t was. I don't really think so. I mean, vain? yes. lala? no. I ADMIT BEING VAIN. It's fun at times when u're super duper bored.

What else?
ahhh~ I went swimming today.
note to self, don't go swimming when u have a cough cuz it makes it doubly hard to breathe.
and, don't go after 1pm on a rainy season when u haven'te eaten anthing the whole darn day. God punished me by making it rain after only 20? laps. uhhh. Gave me a reason to slack tho =P

I baked today. Cookies to be exact. It was meant for our dear Becca-chan BUT something went horribly wrong as i ran out of flour and had to use self-raising flour thus, the cookies are TOO HARD for us humans to eat. Anyone with a blender as a pet? they'd love it.
so erh,
I'M SO SORRY REBECCA NG JIA YIN.
no cookies for you. *bows 90degrees* gomen ne!
at least I tried rite? *shrugs* I hate failing.

maataa =D
once again, Happy Birthday Riidda =D
u do NOT look 28 with those cute chubby cheeks.
Don't lie, U're actually 22 AREN'T YOU?
haha XD

Maybe it's me but I really don't get it.

2008-11-20T23:09:00.000-08:00

Currently : trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with my connection.

I CAN'T WATCH RYUSEI NO KIZUNA EPISODE 5!!!
and it's officially killing me.
Baaakaa. Seriously. I freakking love this show.
Nino and Ryo TOGETHER makes Jadey a happy fangirl XD.
Maybe Shige, Sho and Daiki would do a drama together? naaaah BUT THAT WOULD BE SO COOL XD.
But anyways, Ryusei no Kizuna rocks XD Who wouldn't want to see Ryo talking more than he usually does and Nino being all lonely and lame. It's cute XD
Whatever~ I finished watching Maou and that show eally made me emo.
The ending was.. sad.
i say this again, i will HUGGLE Toma.
But I still love Shige so all in the world is still normal - for now XD
Ryusei ep 3 made me cry tho~ or was it ep4? jaaa~ been on a Drama spree I can't tell anymore. lol! Ryusei no Kizuna is deffinately a must-watch. Jang Jang!

Despite the controversy surrounding Kato Shigeaki's appearance on Shounen Club Premium, I watched it. I mean it's like, how could i NOT watch? It's Shige. and controversial~
Anyways, I find it so baka how people are saying he's boasting and bragging and la la blaah. I find he was just speaking the truth and saying what other (more successful) JE members aren't able to say. I think if they were to watch that ep, they would be going "maaa, I wish I had the guts to say that" Well, that's what I think. Perhaps people might say I'm baised (i DID spend 6 damn hours Dl-ing that with my idiotic connection. damn.), however I feel he was just being him. When he got in NEWS, he went from sky-high to lowest of low and at that point i wanted to phase into my com and give him the warmest hug humanly possible. Maybe it's just me (most probably so) but he had it hard. Coming to a group of er.. uh.. elite members and thinking that he was holding them back. Thinking of quitting JE for the sake of letting others have more space. Shige really is awesome. Saying his uchiwas didn't sell well made me want to buy all the uchiwas of him. If that was possible, trust me for I would have done it. Without a blink. Shige has grown, therefore, I will grow too. I will be the best that I can be and one day, I'll perhaps be good enough. maybe I'll never be. but I'll try to be as close as possible.

Thinking about this really made me think. My name is Jade Yeap and what have I been doing so far? I really don't have an answer. You, the person reading this must be thinking, "ehhh? all of a sudden she's gotten deep." Well, actually this part of me has been here all along and I just hid it away cuz i didn't know what to do or where to put it. Life is hard and that's an understatement for even the people who have known all their life what they were going to do once they're grown up. But I have a question, what do you do when you have no goals, hopes or even a dream? To me, that's how life is. in school I strive with the thought "I will get good grades so I can do something good with my life and with all my heart, not be like my parents" but I tend to get stuck thinking, what is that something I'm aiming for. maybe that's why my grades are never good no matter how hard I try. It's probably the realisation that - I am nobody and thus, no motivation. I often think about what I'm going to do when I grow up and in more that one situation, it's gotten me depresed and frustrated. Dare I say it, suicidal. Honestly, I lack confidence in life and that has been a huge barrier that I've never thought of crossing because as I see it, everyone is beeter at everything than me. I know that even the best in the world cannot be best forever but even among my peers, what am I good for? In life everyone is good at least something. Be it studying, cooking or even writing! I can't find my thing. just one thing among everyone else that I can say "I'm good at this. Let me do it" Perhaps it's my absence of confidence that has made me think this way but somehow, I just don't think so.
I agree when people say, Life is hard.
But why is it hard for some and just seemingly impossible for others?

jyaa~ I will stop on that subject cuz it's gotten me all sad.
fuufuu~ Oh yeah, Wednessday night I went to a Korean bbq restaurant and gaaahh. i don't like Korean food at all! XD maybe the bbq part was okay but... even their tea is hopeless XD
GOMEN GOMEN. I'm pretty baised when it's about Japan VS Korea and I sincerely apologize to anyone I've offended by saying that.

sigh. I wanted to give u guys pic spam like I usually do but.. somehow i'm not up for it today.
Sumimasen. Ja matta.

Strabucks is my guilty pleasure.

2008-11-17T17:37:00.000-08:00

Currently : Downloading Onigokko reverse (where Shige WINS!)

Greetings! I haven't bloged in ages i tell yeah!
1st thing I wanna say is THANK YOU to Hanan for my lovely blogskin.
Making everything Shige centered leads to one happy Jadey!

Now for updates.
Last monday i KNOW this is late =.=
Was my last official day of school. Technically I still had school after that but knowing me, what did I do? ah yesh, skip =D
Anyways, after school, practically my whole class went to visit Pn. yong and her new born baby!
SHE WAS SO CUTE!
But when I carried her, she cried and i was like, WHY!?
I had to leave there cuz i was late to meet Michelle!
I was like an hour late =.= sorry Mic!
U know what? SHE BOUGHT ME STARBUCKS! jyaaa~ It's my guilty pleasure.
By the time I got home, it was like 9pm.
so i was out of the house for like.. 14hours. I stunk XD

The rest of the week was spent OL. even so, I failed to blog. that's how lazy I am.
okay, I bring u GREAT NEWS!
NEWS's new album Color (japanese production companies canNOT spell.) is OUT and it's freakking A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.
I know i'm baised but Koyashige's duet - Murarisuto is like the cutest song ever in the history of songs and it makes me want to jump Shige. Yes, u read it. Jump.
It's like a sequal to Chirarizumu and if u KNOW the lyrics of that, you would probably know that Murarizuto is also a very ero song. Hence, me wanting to jump Shige XD
But seriously! gaaaaaahh! i love it bunches!
Listening to it now =X

jaaaa~ i'm getting poorer by the minute and i need money!! sobbb~
i wanted to go to the HYDF screening/Ohno's bday bash/JE fan gathering yet I'm too poor to go! where am I gonna get RM30 anyways?! GUH. Life's sad when u have no $$.
and my gulity pleasure of STARBUCKS is really expensive too! =.= sigh.

well then, i'm off~ BYE!

Bored!

2008-11-09T03:24:00.000-08:00

Currently : Downloading BUNCHIES of ARASHI vids!

Okay, Yesterday was pure, hardcore FUN.
so maybe it wasn't really hardcore but, nonetheless fun XD
We bbq-ed CHICKEN WINGS! which were pure yumness and after all sorts of junk insinde my tummy, i played basketball and sucked miserably. I mean shooting hoopsis okay but actually PLAYING, that's a different story XD

After awhile, We started dancing cuz i asked Juinn Bin to teach me the Soulja boy dance (i've mastered it! BWAHHAAH) but in one of the trial runs, i fell down and started to laugh like a weirdo XD it was sooo fun! haha i sweat so much. Ended up going home at midnight.

OH BTW, Man Utd loss to Arsenal. =D none of my business but.. yeah~

Anyways, what else....
I guess nothing. but i thought....
GARHX. =D

k la, BUH BYE.

Foods XD

2008-11-07T22:07:00.000-08:00

Currently : mad at Rebecca for getting 5A1's

Seriously rebecca, I HATE YOU! no fair no fair! i want 5A1's tooo!! *shrugs* now there's no hope for ur cookies. SAY GOODBYE TO UR COOKIES!

Yesterday was a HAPPY day! why? cuz it was the last day of exams! That's why =D AND after school, was the English Society's Jamuan and we had not 1, but TWO secret recipe CAKES! Chocolate Indulgence and Lemon Cheese. We also had 10 PIZZAS! and bottles of sugary carbonated drinks. TALK ABOUT FAT!
Also, the teachers gave each of the AJK one RM10 cash voucher at Jusco each! I've RM10 to spend! none for rebecca.

So after all the fattening foods,
me
Eijane
Tian hui
Mun Ee
Amy and
Weng Yan
went to IOI to watch HSM 3. The beginning where there was a super close up of zac efrons face, scared me XD.
After that, i went shopping with my mum and Yang Yik asked me to go to Jin Min's party and I was like wtf?! i Haven't even got home yet. More importantly, shower.

So I didn't go in the end cuz.. i was exhausted. So I came ONLINE! =D

Today is Yang Yik's farewell (5hours from now) and i'm hungry already. I need food. All i've eaten today was a lousy eggtart and OMY was all 'chuan-ing' me with the presence of his chicken rice. DARN IT. lol XD

OH yesterday was like sivik and PJK exams and i doodled XD

You don't have to tell me twice that i can't draw XDD.
and the last pic was fairly random. U can even see my teacher! Using the phone during exams is so dangerous. XD

i'm poor

2008-11-06T06:11:00.000-08:00

Currently watching : Maou ep2

I really haven't been watching dramas for the past 4 month. OMG IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE? crap. But i seriously need to watch scrap teacher. Who could resist hot japanese school boys? oh Dai-chan XD. But in Maou, i find out WHY i was so into Toma last time in Hana Kimi.
1, HE'S SMOKING HOT (ahaha! i've been going on and on about hot japanese men lately)
2, He's such a good actor
and 3, He's HOT XD

I still really really REALLY needa find Scrap Teacher Hardsubbed like NOW. Durf XD

I almost forgot to blog today~! haha on and note-to-self, never NEVER swim when u've painted ur fingernails. My pretty pretty fingernails are RUINED! and also never swim when u've grown ur fingernails out. why? cuz when i swim freestyle, the feeling of the current between ur fingers and nails is SO weird! like WEIRD. or maybe i'm just paranoid. yeah, most probably XD

Tomorrow is my final day of exams and english society's year-end mash and WEEE! we get secret recipe and PIZZA.
then next monday is our class's mash and we get pizza again. talk about FAT?!

Tomorrow I'm also going to watch HSM3! XD
I'm up to my neck in debts! so so poor! Darn the economy for making everything overpriced.
Eat one lunch can cost RM10 outside X__X
I tried REALLY hard to save and yesterday when i went IOI mall, I had to eat lunch just i was just so friggin hungry, i bought 1 lousy packet of nasi lemak (which was REALLY tiny and had NOTHING inside) and it cost me RM2. SCREW MALAYSIAN'S CURRENT ECONOMY.

But who wants to hear about Malaysian politics and economy when we all know Obama won? HAHAA. Like i even give a damn.

Okay, I really find it hard to cope with my friends. I have no idea when or why they're angry at me. Or even if they're angry at all! It's all very much confusing and too much for my innocent lil mind. SO PLEASE, if u guys read this (which i 100% doubt) WOULD U CUT IT OUT? i've seriously had enough of childish attitudes.

There, done with my venting XD *goes of to Maou land* buh byeee~

awww, i'm sad

2008-11-04T00:03:00.000-08:00

Currently : Reading this

Where does the above link lead you? Why, something Shige related of course! He read is a talented writer. Maybe that's why I feel a need to improve my writings. Even though we use different languages, I want to be on par with my beloved Shige.

anywhoo, today really took it's toll as I am very much sad. Like heaven and earth from yesterday cuz yesterday really was awesome. No idea why but yeah, awesome. Maybe Ryo's bday had something to do with it XD.
Exams results are shyt.
Like seriously, I have no idea how i got this bad but yeah. I'm somewhere beyond the lines of hopeless. I think i should go emo right about now but with the holidays around the corner, there's no time for emo! weeee~!

Omg. I just realised this but yeah. I tot the school term would end next mon but noooooo~ it's next friday so i'm like WTF?! grrr. I'm gonna skip most of it anyways XD.

I really hate being broke. Like hooolaaaaa serious. It's *sigh* hard to survive! esp when the hols start, no more allowence make Jadey a very very sad girl. Enough to make me emo? not really. But the exams part, yeah. emo.

It rained today which meant my swimming would have to be rescheduled AGAIN for the millionth time this year and GOSH i'm gaining weight again and that's another thing that'll make me emo.

Let us all be emo together~~
wow wow wow yeahhh yeahh.
omg i just realised this a second ago, AMY is going to Shanghai this friday and the arashi concerts are going to be on when she IS THERE. Talk about jealous! *shrugs* Amy is a lucky lucky soul and she doesn't even know it X___X.

I was just wondering why I never see rebecca OL when i'm OL. WHY?
She's going to Thailand WITHOUT me. i'd watch out if i were you.
and have u realised? I mention her in almost ALL my post. OMG.

Since I'm bored and procrastinating, look at my Shige's make-me-drool uchiwa.
Seriously, isn't he uber-fantastically-amazingly-super HOT in this? like, wth, needa get one!

and my fascination with butterfly drawing lately.

And that's the end of my ramblings. Some of u must be going, THANK GOD. or something in those lines.

Clauds's Prezzie.

2008-11-03T04:51:00.000-08:00

Currently : Thinking how ERO Shige really makes me happy XD

So... I failed miserably in LJ (as said in earlier post that if i fail, i'll post here XD)
so... HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAUDS! U're 19~!!!!

OKAYYYYY time to explain the pics. The 1st 2.. well, they may not seem like it but they're COOKIES! I didn't have a cookie cutter so i carved each one out with my knife O___O so hard!
They may also not look yummy but they are! My mum snuck them to my cousin when I wasn't looking and he ate it all and i'm like, WTF?! My CLAUDS COOKIES! *cries* But anyways, it proves it's yummy ne? But i DID burn the "A" alil bit. But it's the heart that counts.

As for the Drawing (even though u already guessed i was gonna do a drawing - which was obvious - i'm still VERY proud of this.) Why am I proud? CUZ ME LOVE THE BUTTERFLIES! weee?

too bad I can't send u the cookies, at least u won't needa get fat (like u said on my bday XD)!

OKAY, so once again,

OTANJOBI OMEADETOU CLAUDS!
Happy Birthday.

Happy Bdays

2008-11-03T03:04:00.000-08:00

Currently : Thinking that I needa go shower but here I am. U guys are lucky u can't smell me XD.

3ppls bday today.
1. Our beloved RYO-CHAN! *remembering ai igai no nandemo nai and flails by ero dance moves*
2. My dear dear SUPPPAAAHHH CLAAUUDSSS!
3. Jkun! haven't seen her ol much lately. *sigh*

So, in honour of Ryo-tan's bday, I will show u the most KAWAII chibi in history, like EVER. And the transformation from the kawaii lil boy to sex god XDD. Well, i don't really have Ryo pics cuz obviously I fawn over Shige but here :

Ok fine XD. I dun really have ryo pics at all and i'm too lazy to go find his smoking hot pics but LOL they're out there somewhere. I had like one super hot one but i forgot which folder it's in. that's what happens when u fangirl too much. XD but u have to admit that ryo was the cutest lil kid EVER. in the history of the world. I just wanna pick him up and HUG him. But sadly, he's older than me XDD.

oh wait, HOLD UR HORSES. I found pics XDD I present you, 1 very hot Ryo-chan XD

Okay, after seeing these, u can NOT say ryo is not hot. esp the last one. If u insist of say he's ugly or whatever, u NEED to consult a doc XDDD.

Tell me again how the 1st pic came about to the last pic? anyone? anyone?

Okay wait, just couldn't resist, a Nishikato moment. Ryoshige wearing the same cap. at least i THINK so XDD.

definitely the same cap XDDD! i love their love-hate member ai!

Have we all calm down from the Nishikido Ryo, aka self proclaimed Sexy Osaka man?
very well then, we shall move on =D

For Clauds's prezzie, I shall upload everything onto my LJ. Why? cuz.. i dunno. Unless I fail cuz LJ is hard for me. Curious? dozo :-
Jadeh's LJ

For Jkun's prezzie, i'll be uploading at our very own chat forum in CR. Curious again? dozo :-
CRbudz Chat Forum
We seriously talk about EVERYTHING there. Even tho we've never seen each other in real life before. Me, Heather, Jkun, Keilani and newest addition, Christine. Occasional guest, Claire!
I dunno how we never stop talking XD

Birthdays aside,
TODAY MARKS ANOTHER VERY SPECTACULAR DAY. why u ask? Oh cuz well, It's PRACTICALLY the end of exams. we do have one more day on Friday but only for the useless subs (sivik and pjk. why do we even bother?) so, lets rejoice for Jadeh is officially ending her hiatus as of NOW.
Muah. hah. hahh. hahhhhhhh.

I hate Rebecca cuz she got 83 for her maths and i only got a very VERY saddenning, 72 *cries*
@Rebecca, u owe me sushi AND Shigedoll now. I dun care what u say.
She DID however name me 4th on her "coolest blog I know" list saying that I make her laugh like a crazy person infront of the computer screen. I don't know WHAT's so funny and I suspect she only put my there cuz she wants me to nominate ppl. I'll do it in my NEXT post if i HAVE to. (oh and btw to readers - ghosts and spirits - i loss to 2 ppl she didn't know and 1 very emo person. so.. yeahhhh...)

What else...
OH YEAH. I'M SO SAD BY THIS BUT, TIAN HUI IS CHANGING SCHOOLS!
I want to stalk her parents and demand a good enough (probably non-existant) reason she HAS to transfer schools. DAMN Seksyen 4 for stealing our precious Tian Hui.

OH YEAH. ANYONE KNOW WHERE I CAN DL SCRAP TEACHER HARDSUBS?
I'm hella desperate cuz DAIKI is in it. and Yuto too~!!
Have I mentioned that their new single is freaking AWESOME? Like, omg.
Yuto's voice makes me melt and it's burned onto the surface of my brain and i keep singing his line "acchi kochi no Cherry" if i DID mention this already, SORRY XDD.

Have I mention i'm BROKE? but i still wanno go out. Weee~! my class is going Sunway Lagooon next week (i'm going even IF i'm broke XD) for Tian Hui's so-called farewell party. SHE SO NOT LEAVING, i won't let her. Dead OR alive XD.

Btw, Shige's new hairstyle, does it not make u just HAPPY?
And Shige's eroness is like, WOOT!
*if u dunno what i mean then GOOD. don't want to ruin ur little minds XD*

Okay, this post has been super LONG! and full of caps XD. oh well. I'm HYPE today and that's what it does to me.
So me go watch corner of love now. (i can't believe i missed the 1st 2 eps of Luo Zhi Xiang's hotness. YES, Clair's fangirling got to me XD) BYE!

Happy Halloween?

2008-10-31T08:52:00.000-07:00

Currently : Thinking WHAT THE HELL should I do. Me bored.

So 1st, ignore my title cuz i haven't blogged in AGES and today, i shall BLOG my heart out! Everyone please JUMP for Jadeeeehhhh is back.

So last last weekend i went to Kuantan and was emp the whole trip cuz my brother went there with his dreaded girlfriend and OH HOW I HATE THEM. I don't hate them individually, but together they really, uggghh. Seriously, If u wanna hear stories, i've mountain loads XDD
Anyways, off to the picx!

Moving on to the next matter, Mayonaka no Shadow Boy by HEY! SAY! JUMP is so freakking AWESOME. Like seriously *flails* My dear dear kawaii Dai-chan. (DUN WORRY, Shige is still my ichiban XD) And I'm seriously falling in love with Yuto's voice. Oh how puberty does wonders. Too bad he's younger than me. Well, actually it doesn't really matter since me wants meh Shige. YUTO YUTO YUTO. He's so yeng in the PV. omg. Like seriously, i LOVE puberty. "acchi kochi no cherry"
DURF. My mind goes blank everytime his voice comes out XDD. But he really needs to eat more. All bones XDD

What else happened? ALOT ALOT ALOT but I forget alot. I DO remember I forget tho =D
My exams are STILL on. sadly.
Okay, on to today! =D
Michelle's mum is a pro shopper and Oh too kewl. XD
I WORE A SKIRT and that's the wonders of halloween?
NYEHAHAHAH. Wasn't particularly pleased with what i wore. i mean, i could've done better if i had more time but the party was pretty much a disappointment anyways so it doesn't matter XD. I don't think u wanna hear me blabber so OFF to the pics!

Okay, I love FAT in all the above pics XDDD. ANYWAYS, the cosplayers were AWESOMELY cool. and that one girl was OMG pretty. SO SO SOOOO pretty. The dark brown hair one. It's a wig but still, she's so pretty. XDD
OH btw, me love our fake tattoos XD.
I think the only 'fun' thing about the party was taking pics with them and.. see that football goalpost behind there? ieah we jumped and hung on the top thingy and that was fun XD but some dude took pics of us doing that LOL. oh YEAHHHH! we played and pet with a kitty. It was omg skinny. POOR KITTY! X___X

Neways, I'm bored so off i go~ Lj is too distracting XDD

My homework essay.

2008-10-24T20:47:00.000-07:00

This is what Mr. Rajan asked us to do.
Title : The sounds of the kompang startled me from my reverie.

The sounds of the kompang startled me from my reverie. I opened my eyes finding myself in the decorated kampung house. She looked stunning in her traditional wedding attire sitting next to her soon-to-be husband who was seemingly the luckiest man alive.

I remember her moving into the empty house next to ours 15 years ago. When mother and I went over to introduce ourselves, that was when I met her. We were inseparable ever since. She was my best friend and we did everything together but I started wanting to be more than just her best friend, I fell in love. At first, I thought that this was innocent and all I wanted was to see her happy but later I realised that I wanted her to be happy with me.

I remembered the day I confessed. It was straight out of a love novel. I invited her to the beach and she arrived to find candles outlining the shape of a valentine, the middle filled with petals from a hundred red roses. And there I was, nervous, standing in the middle of the heart holding a bouquet of flowers so tightly. I declared my love to her.

I remember being very surprised when she said she loved me back as she jumped into my arms. I do not remember how I responded to that but that was the start of out gentle, sweet relationship. We dated, had fun and made plans. We thought of spending our lives together but that was put on hold the day she told me she needed to leave the kampung to go to the city for studies.

I remember missing her so much, waiting for her to call everyday and jumping for joy everytime I find her letter in the mailbox. I counted till the day she would comeback and celebrated when she finally did. She changed a bit but I was too happy to care because we were finally back together. She became hesitant and careful and I was ignorant enough to care less.

I remember throwing things when she told me we couldn't be together anymore. She said that a rich business man in the city was in love with her and told me I was too poor. She told me she still loved me but loved his money more. I couldn't sleep for days, comforting myself in alcohol.

I remember the day the came back from the city again, announcing that she was getting married, I remember walking over to her house to congratulate her. I remember locking myself in my room, blaming myself for being poor with empty beer cans scattered across the floor. I remember faking smiles, pretending I was happy for her when in reality, I wasn't.

Here i am now, sitting among the dressed up guests at her wedding with another man. Right then and there, I decided to forget. Forget her smile, her laugh, the way her forehead creased cutely when she thinks, the way her voice squeaks when she's mad and the way she lights up a room without even trying. For the first time in a long time, I smiled and meant it.

END

I started the paragraphs with I remember ON PURPOSE and my teacher nagged me for reusing the same things. I DID IT ON PURPOSE u bahhhh! pppfftt..
Anyways, This wasn't so good cuz i did it in like 40mins and Mr. Rajan gave me 35 out of 50 which is sad. X__X Anyways, just wanted to share. buh-bye.

Rebecca tag

2008-10-19T09:44:00.001-07:00

The last person to tag you is?
Rebecca Ng Jia Yin. The one who owes me Shige-doll

What relationship do you have with him/her?
Well, she's mah doggie. my lovable faithfull doggeh which i love oh so much =D Met her in church and we're still best buddies even after i left that church. goes to show how much me loves her =D (does this make u smile BECCA-CHAN?!)

Your 5 impressions towards him/her.
-owes me Shige doll
-has a lot of FANS (if u know what I mean)
-needs more pocket money so she can go out with me more often.
-artistic
-smart (at least smarter than me okay?!)

The most memorable thing that he/she had done for you.
Bwah. ha. ha. haaaa. What if i can't even remember the most memorable thing? or if there were too many! hmmm.. I remember the church asked us to make a "you can make a difference" card for everyone. WHat Rebecca wrote was pure fluff. Oh and don't forget she made me a Shigedoll that never got to me. =.=''

The most memorable thing that he/she has said to you.
She BORED the hell out of someone. Why was it memorable u ask? cuz she said it like a kazilloin times =D

If he/she becomes your lover, you will…
go to a dark corner and plat mushrooms. ME WANTS MY SHIGE AND ONLY SHIGE.

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
I have no idea cuz it's 12AM in the morning ansd i'm stripped of evil i deas. (i KNOW! unbelievable right?)

If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on..
being a Kato Shigeaki CLONE.

If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason is...
She has too many fans and i'm JEALOUS? pfftt. NO WAY.

The most desirable thing you want to do to him/her
Put her in a FLUFF bunny outfit and pose her with different kawaii poses and lolipops and corrot sticks. undoubtly, i'm post them on the internet. I CAN be evil at 12AM after all! i've got my mojo back =D

The overall impression of he/her
Individual. Seriously, i dunno how to put her. AWESOME?

How do you think the people around you feel about you?
RANDOM. WEIRD. and CRAZY. 3 words that practically spell JADEH.

The character for yourself is?
is AWESOME a character? Lols.

On the contrary , the thing you hate about yourself is?
I complain a LOT. like a lot lot.

The most ideal person you want to be is?
Kato Shigeaki's wife? hahahahahaaaaa

Pick a loved one and say something about them
aw GUSH. Rebecca wrote about me. here's what i have to say about what she said 1st. I DO NOT MEMORIZE the dictionary. You should see my other Ol frens. They have black holes as brains! It absorbs everything! hahahah! seriously, have u not seen my FAILED drabble? sigh. i laugh at my inability to write! But i DO admit my love for Shige! bwahahaha.
Who should I write about? I can't wirte on becca cuz practically this whole tag is about her =D
MICHELLE! Michelle Tan Mei Xue is someone i've known for what? almost 10years? My longest friend ever. Like yeah. This itself is a miracle since i've moved 6 times and still managed to keep in contact with her. She's super talented. like, piano, ballet, drawing, arts. u know it, she does it. She flails together with me at anime and JAP-related stuffs and never complains when I go gaga for Shige and that's a PLUS PLUS PLUUUSS! although no one really complains cuz if they do, they'd be in dip shit! =D Okay i think i shall stoppeth cuz i'm sleepy.
Once again, Rebecca, u made me GUSH =DDD

Ten people to tag (i hate this part of tags. i never have enough frens!)
1. Clauds
2.Claire.
3.Ruby
4.Sarmela
5.Heidi
6.Hanan
78910 anyone who's bored enough.

Who is no.2 having relationship with?
Not that i know of?

If no.7 and no.10 were to get together would it be a good thing?
-

How about no.5 and 8?
-

What is number 1 studying for?
Interior Design. going to Japan after that to look for Takki and i'd be her roommate looking for Shige and we'd both marry our ichibans and live happily ever after =D

When was the last time you chatted with them?
ALL of them? this week?

Is number 4 single?
I think yeah but.. hmmm..

Talk about no.2.
Claire is blurfish! =D She's a NEWS fan like me and cannot decide who she loves best (as long as it's not Shige i won't go dip shit on her) but yamapi is winning by 0.000001%. The wonders of pi-chan. She's from Singapore and my lil sis! =D She talkes to me (and vice versa) everytime she's online and lets me de-stess upon her. awwww. Wonderful eh? GO get urself a lil sis! hahha!

Okay. that's the end of that. SOOO sleepy. BYE! *waves*

My random (failed) drabble.

2008-10-17T05:23:00.001-07:00

I can't find it a title.

The scent of the sweet summer wind gently brushed on my slightly chilled face, bringing warmth along with joy. Nothing has changed yet so much was different. The shops I used to visit closed down and new commercial shops took over, there were big malls and the town didn't look as Innocent as it used to be. But yet, it still gave me the same warmth it did years ago and the people were just as friendly as before. The first summer I had to come here, I didn't speak to my dad for a month thinking the only reason he was sending me to a grandma I barely knew, was so he could spend some time alone with that woman he thinks could replace mom. I hated him and dreaded the thought of coming here but learnt to love the green meadows, friendly people and grandma. I came every year ever since but when grandma left, I refused to come back. Not till now.
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I strolled through the streets I roamed every summer. Wondering why I was so foolish, and wondering what made me leave this delicate place. Even after 6 years of absence, the people here still remembered me. I'm glad I made a tiny impact. I found myself walking the same route I used to take years ago. From the bookstore next to that cute little tea house that's no longer there, heading towards the narrow road lined with huge trees which lead to a row of cottages that's good looking and sweet enough to come straight out of a Christmas catalog.

Walking pass those textbook cherry blossoms, I began remembering our innocent walks. how we would deliberately take slow paces so we wouldn't reach so soon, so we could talk just that little more or even be speechless but the gentle warmth our hands created for each other was enough. As much as I didn't want to admit it, as I was travelling down that narrow road, I missed our sparks, I missed the way he made my heart skip beats and how tight yet warm my chest was everytime he was around. He was not particularly handsome and not particularly smart but he brought on the broadest smile I could ever present. Even up till now.
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When I saw him again, unintentionally, unprepared, I didn't know how to react and more importantly, breathe. He looked so amazingly stunning. His shoulders were not those awkward teenage ones he used to have, his smile was exactly the same, it glowed. He was taller and buffer but he still had the innocence in his eyes. He said a simple 'hello' and I was speechless. Puberty does wonders. It made me remember just how much I missed him.

After putting my brain back into order, I managed to mutter a 'Hi' without it turning into jibberish and I was secretly proud of myself. I bucked up and continued 'so how have you been?" I said it trying to hide my weariness as I racked my brain for the reason we didn't work out. His eyes suddenly changed and there was a slight sadness that I swear was specifically for me to see.
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I have no clue to how this happened. One second I hate the all kinds of awkward seeing him made me feel, another second we were behind one of the cherry blossom trees with my back pressed reassuringly against the tree bark as our lips generate a high and his hands finding the exact right spots on my body that made my heart soar.

He walked me back with the same usual pace. Again, we were shy and there wasn't a need to talk. We would steal little looks at each other and each time one catches the others' gaze,we would just look away and blush a little too pink and smile a little too broadly. Our hands just instinctly found each other and that familiar warmth that I missed a little too much was back. Just then and there, I decided. This, was where I belonged.

THE END.

by,
Jade Yeap.

Pfffttt~! I'm soooo not pleased with this! The plot is everywhere and it doesn't make much sense. Sigh. AND I can't even find a title! oh well =D thanks for reading my drabble =D

Online friends are loved.

2008-10-17T04:59:00.000-07:00

Currently : Wondering where the hell did i find such amazing online friends.

YO PEOPLEZ!
Me currently still a lil brain dead from my not-sleeping-for-3-days schedual.
Screw final exams and the pressures of getting good grades which i never seem to get.
Now i have panda eyes, pimples and a coffee addiction.
See what exams can do to people?
*sigh*
Anyways, my 1st day of exams was all 3 papers of biology.
second, Physics
third, Chemistry
fourth, ADD math.
today, REST.
and at the right time! If i pull one more all-nighter, i think i might just faint of exhaustion.

Due to exams i didn't come online for one week and that IS alot!
On account that i'm JADE and no onlineing for me practically means life not worth living.
When i got back yesterday,
I was lucky enough to find tons and tons of good luck messages from my online buddies.
boy do i looooveeee them =D
Heather wrote me a ShigeJadey moment in our forum to reward me for working as hard.
and Wendy made me a banner FULL of my name and Shige's name and me LOVES it!
Everyone is soooo AWESOME! =D

I'm going to Kuantan tomorrow and sadly, i've to study on this long awaited trip and the journey TO Kuantan, i've to be stuck in a car with my pffft brother and his oh-so-fake girlfriend. I don't mean to be biacthy but i have my reasons.
I don't bash for fun.

I'm currently PISSED at the Malaysian postmans.
They owe me lots of mail!!! SIGH.
One from Rebecca,
one from Andi,
one from Charm, and
one from Clauds.
Pffft. Me ain't happy.

YEY! me founds more Malaysian NEWS fans and it goes to show, NEWS is international.
This also means, they rock! BWAHAHAH I'm bias.
but, I'm not into Shige's new hair. It scares me but what the heck, me LOVES him.

enough said. BYE =D

TAG! you're it =D

2008-10-10T09:29:00.000-07:00

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 6:34pm
Name: Jade / Jadey / Jadeh
Sisters: NONE [=.=]
Brothers: 1 [Kent]
Shoe size: Like.. Somewhere between 6 and 7.
Height: 158cm or something like that.

where do you live: In Puchong, with my mama =D
Favourite drinks: WATER and.. ribena XD
Favourite breakfast: I eat whatever i get to eat. BUT, i would love to have some waffles!
Have you ever been on a plane?: uh.. yea?
Swam in the ocean: I'm pretty much surrounded by it here X__X so yeah.
Fallen asleep at school: MOST DEFFINATELY.
Broken someone's heart: I'm SUCH a good kid. no?
Fell off your chair: I have no memory of this. Maybe?
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: not that desperate and free to do that =.=
Saved e-mails: msgs got. emails.. i just don't delete them.

What is your room like: Reference books EVERYWHERE. I swear they're taking over my room. They secretly have LEGS!
What's right beside you: air?
What is the last thing you ate: Mini manderin orange.

Ever had chicken pox: HELL YEAH. i cried so much cuz i was a tiny kid.
Sore throat: a lot X_X
Stitches: Thank God no =D
Broken nose: Naaaahhhh don't do much dangerous stuffs.

Do you believe in love at first sight: YESH.
Like picnics: With Shige, i would most happily oblidge. [i'm bieas so WHAT?]
Who was/were the last person/people you danced with: Myself. in my living room. Yes, i'm weird. deal with it =D
Last made you smile: Heather. SHE EMAILED ME. mad me happy =]
You last yelled at: mama? I feel bad for that.

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: Shige? sadly, no D=
Kiss anyone: nope
Get sick: Not reallyy. but still eating meds cuz of my toothache.
Talk to an ex: Me = innocent. me no ex =D
Miss someone: SHIGE SHIGE SHIGEEE!! and Heather =D
Eat: uhh.. of course?

Best feeling in the world: Falling in love [i sound cheesy!]
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Monkey-chan? aka ShiDEaki. YUPPP
What's under your bed: boogie man O___O
Who do you really hate: FOINKOO. but it's neutral now
What time is it now? : 0010 hours 11th october 2008

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: Kato Shigeaki and Monkey-chan
Do you have any siblings: BRO
Do you want children: With SHIGE
Do you smile often: A lot i guess. but not in a WEIRD way =D
Do you like your hand-writing: not at all! it's horrible and changes everytime.
Are your toe nails painted: must.. admit.. YESH but not in those girly colours.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: Shige *wink*
What color shirt are you wearing now: blueeee
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: watching sorry, i love you on 8tv.
I can't wait till: 7th Nov. END OF EXAMS
Are you a friendly person: i would be my fren!
Do you have any pets: not at the moment
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: jaaappaan --takki weee
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: I have no idea who that person is. maybe one of my girlfriends. i love them all =D
Do you sleep with the TV on?: A LOT
What are you doing right now?: Typing
Have you ever crawled through a window?: NOPE!
Can you handle the truth?: NOT REALLY. it scares lil jadey
Are you too forgiving?: NOPE. NOT AT ALL
Are you closer to your mother or father?: MAMA
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: Hor Ei Jane, Chong Eevern, Amy Wong, Susu, Tian Hui, Wai Kit, Fang Han, Mun Ee, Weng Yan, Choe Leng, Guang Cheng. did i forget anyone? [yesh, THAT many ppl]
How many people can you say you've really loved?: a guy? SHIGE count?
Do you eat healthy?: Not really. Maybe?
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: No ex......
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: uh yeah
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: No one. Sometimes i feel oh too lonely
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Very much LOUD
Are you confident?: NOT AT ALL. but i'm improving slightly nowadays =D

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. I was skinny at the time! O___O
2. i was only 6 years old!
3. NO WORRIES MAN
4. My graduation (kindergarten) performance
5. Getting ready to MOVE house

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. TRY and meet heather OL. XD
2. STUDY
3. STUDY
4. FAIL AT STUDY
5. EAT

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. Apples!
2. cheese slices!
3. cakes and cookies
4. whatever chips i can find.
5. ANYTHING EDIBLE

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. GO to JAPAN and stalk Shige making him MINE
2. Put myself through colledge and University
3. Buy NEWS's latest album/cd - 50SGD SOB SOB
4. Buy an anuity so i don't have to work ever again
5. GO on a Shige-JE-Products/Merchadise shopping spree.

5 of my bad habits:
1. Bad Tempered
2. LAZY. this is inavoidable.
3. Too addicted to the internet.
4. Second guessing myself a LOT
5. Trying to be GOOD at something when i'm obviously not. aka, sore loser. (for example fic writing X__X fail miserably)

5 places I have lived in:
1. Subang Jaya
2. Entrepenuer Park
3. Kuchai Lama
4. Kinrara
5. Bandar Puchong Jaya (i've moved SIX times in my life. =D)

5 jobs I've had:
1. STOCK CHECKING in uncles shop XD does this count? hha
2. FULL TIME STUDENT
3. FULL TIME CHRISTIAN
4. Part-timer at a comic store.
5. --

5 people I tag:
1. REBECCA
2. CLAIRE
3. HANAN
4. JEMAE
5. WHOEVER ON MY BUDDY LIST X__X

Holidays

2008-10-03T20:53:00.000-07:00

Currently : avoiding studying. me so dead X___X

The past few days has been my lazy days. pfft. Thank the holidays for making me look like a blob of fat lying around everyday.
BUT, i did go shopping with non other than mah loveleh Michelle Tan Mei Xue. After that, we went to her house for a sleepover. SLEEPOVERS ARE NOT CHILDISH. for anyone who thinks so. It rocks. especially when u have NO (yes absolutely ZERO) parental guidance. I wanted to not sleep but nyeh. Sleep was too tempting so i gave in at like 4++AM.

Anyways, back to my shopping experience. This is the 1st time i've used so much while going out with meh frens. i used like RM150 of my OWN money. and mic used like RM200. We're both very much broke now. OH OH! mic bought this really cool jacket that's.. really cool =D it has CAT EARS! =D don't die of shock when u see me wearing it.
OH we wnet to Gasoline to eat. The atmosphere was SO just SO SO SO cool =D the food was nyeh, ooOOKkaayy. but who am I to say =D
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!

I'm going to be on Hiatus soon i supposed. I've already put it off for so long. Pffftt. ppl are getting impatiently for me to stay away from the internet. In other words, ppl want me gone X___X lol.
I've been trying to study. Emphasis on TRYING. Yesh, i'mma a useless soul. I still refuse to study even thought i'm very much clear with the fact that I. Will. FAIL.

OH, i'm supposed to be offline 3 minutes ago X___X
MORE PICSPAM =D

I've Gotten fat don't yeah think O__O

Yup, i've deffinately gotten fat X_X

Me LOVES this =D i took so long to do it cuz me pen was sucky.

Random famblings =D trust me, i do this ALL the time. Ask QL X__X

This it my fave artwork for now =D i've posted it EVERYWHERE if u haven't noticed.
My msn, Crunchyroll, Friendster, my HANDPHONE =D and now it's come to invade my blog.
And yes, I AM a pervert when it comes to Shige. pfffftt so what =P

This is BWHAHAHAHAHAHAH! that's all I have to say. It's speaks for itself doesn't it?

Okay, by now, I was supposed to bo offline 19minutes ago.
so, Toodles =D

HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO ME =D

2008-09-25T21:07:00.000-07:00

Currently : downloading SO many stuffs.

OKAY! i haven't posted for like SO long cuz i've been super omg busy!
I was my bday! the past Tuesday! My friends all celebrated for me! weeeeee~!

well, 1st celebration, last last Wednesday.
Pearl, Crystal and Ruby came to my house and surprised me with 4 choco balls! =D YUMMIE.
we each had one. it was so early cuz my bday just passed 3days ago. ANYWAYS, here are pics.

look at the so poh behind us. LOLS

i missss my hair!

2nd, on the 23rd it's self!
I celebrated with REBECCA. the mushroom gal! =DD
I asked where was my Shigedoll and she says i'm getting it in 3days. Tomorrow?

The universal language of aliens! or so she says.

She LOVES her barney XD
purple DINOSAUR! =D

I LOVE being a lil kid =D

Once in a lifetime pic! me wearing specs!

BECCA wearing specs.

I made her do stupid stuffs.

After the rebecca X jadey date, I went to have CRABS PRAWNS FISH dinner with my aunt and mummy and cousins and uncle. OMG the food was like YUM YUM YUUUUUMMM.
no pics. gomen.

THE BEST WAS YESTERDAY!
omg it was hella fun! to me! i'm a simple girl to please.
There was like 16 ppl in total. Some had to leave early which was a bummer.
ANYWAYS, we went for sushi king!! RAW FISH rocks me socks.
bwhahaha! well, anything JAPANESE is awesome. It cost alot but so worth it. ME HAPPY.

Fang Han and Wai Kit. Ahhh! darn tall tall guy.

TH was hungry! O__O

HAHA me LOVE this pic! QL's pose was GOLD.

BWHAAH! this is a VERY valuable pic. Please no passing on. Some people will kill me. And REBECCA, it's ur beloved Eevern there. hahahah! XD XD

TH, QL, Jane and MEEEE! =D

Munz and me

Eevern and MUAH.

My very tall tall TALL son and me. Apparently, he's only a weee bit shorter than me when he sits down. ahh i feel short. It's all Wai Kit's fault for insulting me for being short the whole day. He'll call me tall tall girl and say i'm taller than him even tho he's so tall. i shall have my REVENGE! =DDD

BUNNY! Weng Yan and me.

AMY and me.

Guang Cheng and me.

Monkey and me. the monkey is like SOFT! thanks guys! *waves*

there are more pics, like group pics but they aren't with me. SARMELA! CHONGEEVERN! gimme pics now. doubt they'll ever read my blog.

My CRbudz are SOOOOO lovelyyy! O_O omg. i've no idea how to thank them!!!
Link to all me prezzies! THANKS SO MUCH! and, scroll to the LAST spoiler and open it, SEE THE BIG MONKEY? and everything else? those are what my friends surprised me with! omg LOVE THEM! i really thank EVERYONE!
http://www.crunchyroll.com/user/jadeyeap/pages/sweet16

Qiao Ling, Tian Hui, u guys really ROCK!
i extend apologies to Eevern and Jane. (you guys know why)

wow, this took me awhile to post! hahah! byeee~! will be back with more pics! and HOPEFULLY, prezzies! XD XD yeah rite! haha!

Broken Dreams - Part 6

2008-09-13T05:14:00.000-07:00

-Broken Dreams-
Part 6

'I'm sorry Sean, I didn't mean to just leave, but i really can't do this. I thought i could have a normal friendship with you, but I just can't. We can't meet anymore. Please forget you ever knew me and don't call me. I'm sorry, BYE.'

He never did talk to her since, but her words kept repeating themselves in his head. It had been a week, she was just a random stranger he'd met that coincidentally had the same fate and Jenny and him. But it was a little different still. Tim left still loving Kate, Jenny left loving another man. Jenny was everything to him. He would've given up everything for her but maybe that was his flaw. He had been too needy, clingy, hopelessly in love.

When Jenny left him for that loser, his memory became a constant reminder to never fall in love again. That's why he knew that he doesn't like Kate. But there was something in her, her broken heart, her sense of neediness maybe. It made her fit the picture. It wasn't at all using her to mend him, more like they were just perfect for each other. He was still not at all convinced that he liked her but the fact that she told him to bug off angered yet, saddened him. His emotions were overflowing and he wasn't liking it. He was very much, in denial.

Days later, as he was walking in the crowded streets of town, he saw a familiar silhouette. He ran towards it, chasing it and finally caught up to it. He reached a hand over, grabbing her shoulder as he blurted out "Kate!". The figure turned followed by the frown showing distinctly on his face. "I'm sorry" he said and left. He was confused, wondering why the hell was he so disappointed. It's just Kate. He drew his phone out dialing her number but just couldn't press the call button. His gaze tore away from his phone and he realised where he was. Burger King. He gave himself a sigh, stood straight and paced steadily into her work place.

He saw her behind the cashier. She looked fragile. He queued up in the line she was in charge of even though it was obviously the one with most people. He didn't get why he was there but he stayed and waited his turn, beginning to get nervous.
She didn't notice him until he ordered his regular - just a patty with the bun. She looked up and stared guiltily. He just smiled at her which made her feel worse. There they were, back to the beginning.

Writers note : BLEHHH. this is CRAP CRAP CRAAAPP. but WHOCARES. as long as me happie =D

Bored.

2008-09-10T05:30:00.000-07:00

Currently : Uploading pics to Friendster.

What should i talk about today?
The fact that I was hella bored in school without my dear dear SUSU or the sketch "the lotus eater"? NYEH. all so boring.

Well, QL didn't go to school today cuz she was sick. awww. poor her. BUT i was in PAIN too! cause of suffering? PURE and UTTER boredom. nyeeeehh.

ISH. thinking bout the sketch makes me twitch. We were group FIVE but yet we went first. WHY u ask? Cuz apparently, FIVE is Mr. Rajan's favourite number in betweem 1 - 8. DIE DIE DIEEEE. no fair. moving on.

Today i came home to find an empty house once again (duh..) and i find that rather irritating! I don't wanna be all alone! DAMN. =O Scary Jade appears! *SHINEE* And so i once again IGNORED my growing pile of HW and list of things to study and became what i'm good at, a slackker =D

but i DID go crazy and do this,

BWAHHAA! I'mma camwhore. I LOVEEE my Shige X Jade declaration! =D

Certified. NO ONE CAN STOP ME NOW *evil laughs*

Blehhh. this was something i did a few days ago =D feast ur eyes on my adorable bunny and my pajamas =D

OKAY. i'm done bieng pointless for today. BYEE =DDD

Weird

2008-09-08T03:30:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : L changes the world. FINALLY.

I find myself SO weird. like imagine someone finding themselves weird. That itself is weird right? LOLS. i'm not making sense. ANYWAYS, today i went for my routine 4times a week 50lap swim (YES i CAN do 50 laps. i did double before. if you don't believe me, buggg off.) and on my 33rd lap, they were spraying that mosquito killer smoke. THANK GOD i'm not a mozzi =P bwahahaha poor mozzi's. ANYWAYS, they were spraying it and i was cornered in the pool and had nowhere to run so i continued swimming. haha! i AM as weird as i say! =D *jumps* yey?

15 more days to go. MY SWEET SWEET 16 =D
i'm getting OLD OLD OLD OLD OOOOLLLLDDD. but other than the fact that i'm studying in form4, no one would EVER believe i'm 16 cuz i act like i'm 5 and i'm clueless in chemistry. YEAH. CLUELESS. i'm so gonna fail everything this year! i promised myself i'd study today but HERE I AM =D

I wanna start watching Maou but the darn exams are around the corner and messing up my bday time and and anddd me ANNOYED. nyeh, not annoyed. more like PISSED outta my freakking my =D once again, i AM weird. bwahahaha! i rock.

Here are my random pics AGAIN. who cares if u're bored. me having fun =D

my VERY messy table. imagine, there's TWO of em O__O

MANGAAAASS! =DDD all shoujo's. i'mma girl after all. even tho it's HARD to imagine, i know.

ALL the stuff i NEEDA study in exactly 30days. O__O i shall FAIL FAIL FAAAIILLL. just look at that MOUNTAIN of exercises. that's not even ALL of em!

weee~! i'm trying to make my magic 8-ball look magical!

SOME of me books =D my fave is that black one entitled "How I live now." it OMG rockkss!

okayy! that's all from my weird self. dozo. enjoy! =D

OOOHH byw, to all my fic readers (if there are any) gomen cuz i'm kinda too busy to continue it. i'll try my best!

Ie Ga Tooi!! weeeeeeeeeeeee~!

2008-09-04T08:11:00.000-07:00

Currently : Downloading Ie Ga Tooi. you guys have NO IDEA how long I've been looking for this vid! GAH.

1st off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Choon Wai. the so-called-sun warrior. *ahemYEAHRIGHTahem*
He is 16 which reminds me! YEYY! my bithday is in 19 days. i WISH i could get the NEWS pacific DVD or the new NEWS single - Happy Birthday, but dreams are meant to be broken sometimes eh?

I didn't get to go swimming today cuz it rained for an incredible 4 hours and i was stuck being lazy and getting fat. oh well, life goes on.
but i AM getting an awful tan. wait, i mentioned that already. LOLS

FINALLY, the pameran bulan patriotik is FINALLY over. No more reason for me to skip class. Damn. skipping class was GOLD. But getting dumb is.. notsogood. =P bleh bleh bleeehh. i've to face clss and all the horror it brings. Ahh poor Angela. she feels it too.

OMG. i'm watching Ie Ga Tooi ep 1 as i type and GAWD. Shige makes me go.. *melts* i'm incoherent when it comes to him. by the way, does ANYONE lmow why tesshi always acts as the emo kid? Dont suit him at all. Massu is ALWAYS kawaii and kusano is just cool. BWAHAHA! NEWS! I heard somewhere he only gets emo parts cuz emp ppl dun talk much and it's cuz he's not so good in acting. poor tesshi. but shige's not THAT much better. but that's also whay i love about him. his inperfection that makes him perfect in my eyes. OMG. Rebecky, if she reads this will scold me for being too obsessed AGAIN. =D who cares! Shige is LOVEEE!

Foinkoo aka Fishy. i think there's something wrong with her. Me and SUS hate her the most and both of us have been not talking to her much (more like avoiding her in general) but somehow she's so SPED. after like a month of hoo hah, she NOW only begin to suspect SUSU hating her. SUSU 1 person. WHAT ABOUT ME?! GAH. She's sloow D=

here's my random pic of the day! guess who it is!

OMG. getting scolded AGAIN. that's what i get for last minute blogging when i've been OL the whole day. BYEEEE~!

VENT

2008-09-02T07:42:00.000-07:00

Currently : Feeling oh damn emo. These few days has been Jadey emo days.

The only thing keeping me alive are :

3. CR forum (being ERO keeps me alive? HELLYEAH)
2. CR friends. (SUPPPAAAHH Clauds, Jemae-nee, Charm-nee even tho she hasn't been OL much, Claire, Bluiiieee!!!!, Keilani, Druggieee Angela and lots lots more =D)
1. Kato Shigeaki. (need I say more? Have u NOTICED my numbering? WHO is number ONE?)
4. Swimming (I'm getting weirly tanned! GAH i hate it. even tho i WANT to be tanned, not this way1 it's so weird!!!!)
5. School friends (Mainly SUSU and TianTian)
6. Michelle Tan Mei Xue. BFF! =D

There u go. my reasons to live =P ahhh. there's trouble waiting everywhere!
SHEEESHHH. I'm gonnaaaa cause my team to FAIL in their english oral exams. why? cuz i'm too damn busy that i'm not in clas everyday. pppfffftt. annoying lil bugger. *tension tension tension* no wonder people say my pimples are increasing! GAH.

21 days to my birthday and 28 days to the release of NEWS's new single Happy Birthday. GAWD. such a coincidence. i'm such a loser counting down me bday. but WHOCARES. i rock too much to be a loser =PP. But seriously, the song is NICE. Shige's solo is LOVE LOVE LOVE. Iwant to eat him up. ahh. he makes me MELT. but i've got a problem with the chorus. BIRTHday they pronouce BATHday like in the CM. but i guess that's why they're Jap and not english-speakin-ppl and it also makes them all the more KAWAII =D.

I think i'm losing sight of somw of my friends. School friends, primary school, online friends, just plain friends. I needa fix me, but i'm nto sure what's wrong. I'm trying so hard to be what everyone wants me to be. but sometimes i can't take it anymore. I don't wanna pretend to like anything i don't for anyone no matter what. I don't wanna be the "good" daughter everyone thinks i am. I may not seem like it cuz i'm NOT. but i've to put on this stupid mask infront of my family. My bro who rebels, gets everything and me, the only one who actually DOES what she says, gets nothing. Sometimes i really just can't take it. I just wanna give in. On these days, I wonder, will I have a happy birthday? or even a normal happy day.

WTF. i dun make any sense. whatever. just needed to rant. i'm done venting so there *breathhheee INNNN, OUUUTTTTT* =D

GTG! getting scolded O____O byeee~!

I feel emo!

2008-08-30T21:44:00.000-07:00

Currently : Spreading my ERONESS with Bluieee in CR forums.

Thursday - Went shopping with Crystal, Ruby and Pearl at last!
Friday - Shopping with SUSU and TianTian.
*PICSPAM*

AHAHAH! the last few pics are GOLD. i miss my hair. i got a hair cut today. and the hairstylist didn't know what he was doing. BAHHH. I think by now, u ppl should know who is who in the pics rite? if not, SHAME ON YOU =DDD

I NEED TO DO MY CHEMISTRY PROJECT but i keep putting it off. it's like 368296yheo4d i dun wanna do it.

I'm having sooooo much fun in the forums with Bluiiiee and Keilani. apparently, J-kun is missing and sigh. It's so much fun and our EROness is indeed growing. ahhh FUN =D

I've no idea what to say cuz i'm in no mood to type.
oh yeah, yesterday i wnet to a funeral and it was my mum's secondary school friend. Which makes me think. 30years from now, how are we all gonna look, be, accomplish? It's hard thinking about the future and i keep putting it off saying i'm just a teen blah blah blah. but when ppl ask me, what do u wanna be? what are u taking for college? or even, what do u want to eat for lunch? i tend to find myslef speechless. My mum's friend had lung cancer and died after only a month after detection. It's like u never know what's gonna happen or will u even be here tomorrow. Life's short. Now i truly understand "It's not how long you live, it's what you do with it." ahh.. i feel emo today =DD

I wonder what will I do on my birthday this year. Will I be happy? or disappointed like last year. I really want to have a happy sweet 16.
Please?

FUCK OFF.

2008-08-29T07:49:00.000-07:00

I'm sooooo frigging pissed right now. Why can't people just believe me? I worked HARD to get that result and no one frigging believes me. I trained myself for 1 damn month. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCCCKKKK. I'm not usually a bad word user but i'm fuckken pissed right now. I was so happy before I even told anyone about this. I was so happy that i finally did something only I can do among my peers. IS THAT SO HARD TO BELIEVE. Everyone thinks they are so fuckking better than me. Well, here's what I think right this minute. FUCK FUCK FUCK everyone. GO AWAY AND DON'T BUG ME FOR AWHILE. And not only 1 person did not believe me. DAMN ASS. Am I that friggin hard to believe? I wouldn't lie about something that childish okay? ASS. Don't come and tell me just cuz YOU can't do it so it automatically means I can't do it. I've been swimming for as long as I can fuckking remember and I didn't even need to learn to swim dammit. FUCK FUCK FUCK. SO what if it really IS a big number! FUCKK. i'm so pissed i'm becoming incoherent. How would YOU feel if u worked DAMN ASS HARD on something and people didn't believe you? YOU TRY LA! stupid. U come here la. Give me 2 damned hours of ur life and i SWIM for u to see. U think i'm all talk ah. DAMN. FUCK.

I'm really not the kind to get pissed so easily anymore. I've already put that side of me away in form 2. I SERIOUSLY changed my anger issues. But you guys really hurt me. And u guys are my best friends some more. I won't tell u stupid lies to make myself look cool infront of u ppl cuz i don't NEED to. That's what frens mean rite? not being fake and the only place where u can just be you? FUCK.

btw, I wouldn't be this mad if it was a damn lie.

Broken Dreams - Part 5

2008-08-27T02:11:00.000-07:00

-Broken Dreams-
Part 5

She woke up finding herself in the comfort of her living room sofa. Constant banging and ringing coming from her head. She ran her fingers through her hair trying to remember what she did the night before. She had no clue but knew it most definitely involved alcohol. Lots of it. She got up and walked towards her bathroom. Her walking seemed more like a dead corpse dragging their lifeless feet along the floor, stumbling on anything it crossed path with. She turned off the nozzle as she grabbed a towel to dry her face. She looked in the mirror and fuck. She remembered Sean.

Great. Just great. she thought as another tug of guilt clashed on top of her. She checked her phone and was shocked to find 12 messages and EIGHTEEN missed calls. All but one from him. She thought to check the one that wasn't from him because she thought it would be easier. She read the message, 'Are you coming home for Thanksgiving? Love, mum.' She thought about it for a second but thinking of her whole family being so happy together makes her clinch in fear. She was the black sheep of the family and had no intentions of becoming what THEY want her to be. She looked back at the other notifications on her phone, he was truly worried, she thought. For a second, she smiled. What the hell am I thinking?! She shrugged the thought off the shoulders.

Right as she was putting her phone down, It rang again. She hesitated, but picked up.

"OHMYGOD Kate! You finally picked up! Do you know how worried I was?"

"I'm sorry Sean, I didn't mean to just leave, but i really can't do this. I thought i could have a normal friendship with you, but I just can't. We can't meet anymore. Please forget you ever knew me and don't call me. I'm sorry, BYE.

*click*
*beeepppp beeeppp beeppp*

Writer's note : GOMEN. this took me forever to get started. and look, it sucked! I'm really bad at this!!

Back to school and Happy Birthday.

2008-08-25T06:09:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : 14sai no Haha ep7

RAWR. there's sooo many reasons i hate school. and the list grows everyday.
1. I'm a teen so it's natural.
2. Homeworks are DURF (ahhhh the Angela drug is back)
3. Projects are DURFF DURFF DURRRFFF! =D
4. It's a waste of me time cuz me no frigging learn nth. i mean thet in the nicest way possible.
5. I have to wake up before then sun is up and when the sky is still dark when u have to wake up, u KNOW there's something wrong with that picture.
6. It's oh so boring.
7. I have to see FISHY. which if u haven't got a clue, me hates her. I dun usually hate ppl but i can't help it =P
8. I have to walk home rain or shine. I prefer rain cuz it's Malaysia. heat + humidity = STICKY.

That's what i could think of on impulse. IMAGINE what i could do if my brain is on full throttle!
Ahhh... what's a wonderful thought.
ANYWAYS! the NEW reason why i hate school is number 9. Helping teachers do their jobs.
well, i'm not blaming Pn. Yong or anything, but organising a pameran for the WHOLE damn school. and with only 3 ppl. i was doing 1/3 of the work? AHH YESH. behold me awesomeness math =DDD so yeah, there i was doing things with my hands screaming and making a fuss and Chong Eevern totally made my day. He said, "okay lah, i belanja u your SUSHI." ahh yes, Eevern, u made me all too happie =DDD

yeah. i feel sad today. I FEEL FAT more like it. ate like FTW! much. so i'm regretting every bit of it. BUT I CAN'T HELP IT! everything is just sooo YUM~! Dammit Jade, u PIGGIEE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIRE-CHAN!
u're now entering the TEENAGE world, therefore, u will learn many many stuffs. espcially all things obscene cuz teenagers are KNOWN for that. yeah. sad for u. D= LOLS.
otanjobi omeadeto and hope u're having more fun than me cuz i'm not having fun at all! LAWLS.

haha!

BYEEE!

Happy sweeet 16 Michelle! LOVE yeah!

2008-08-21T18:50:00.000-07:00

The song Best Friend by NEWS totally hits my heart. Esp the part "You are my best friend!"
speaking of best friends, 16years ago on this day, my best best best best friend in the whole wide world who i've known for like 9 years was born.
OTANJOBI OMEADETO - HAPPY BIRTHDAY my best friend.
her bday is exactly 1 month and 1 day before mine. which in OUR minds, think it's such a coincidence =D
We've know each other for 9 years and that's like MORE than half of our whole lifespan so far! is that cool or what? well if u don't think so, BOO YOUU. there you go =P

i WASN'T the 1st to wish her which was sad. cuz yesterday i was like OL the whole night WAITING for the clock to pass midnite and my mum came in and scolded me for not offin the com yet so that's what i did, off the com. the SEC the com was completely off, the clock struck midnight. i'm serious! NO JOKEEE! so i was like! OMGAHHH i was waiting yet i forgot!! BOOOO! so i called her but OMY wished her 1st. ahhh.. the disappointment.

OKAY! so there's where the bday wishing stopps. YESTERDAY I HAD TO GO TO SCHOOL EVEN THOUGH IT WAS A HOLIDAY. is that not sad? tell me it's sad!!
1, i had to walk there.
2, i had to see FISHY and let her boss me around
3, i had to wake up early
4, i had to work-ishhhh
and 5, IT WAS SCHOOL!
i dun wanna see it more than i already have to. GAH

oh well..
btw, random thought! I WORE A PINK SHIRTT! for those who REALLY know me, u know that this is a BIG deal rite riteeee? if u don't think so, u don't know me well enough. and if that's the case i suggest u get to know me like NOW, cuz i heard i ROCK =D

I HATE youtube. HATE HATE HATE HATEEEEE!
i wanna watched the pacific DVDDD but by the time i got to it, it was friggin removed. i nearly cried DDDD=
THAT DVD costs RM270! if my frens were to "kap fan" and bought me that, i would be the happiest girl alive. like SERIOUS.

and OMGAWD. NEWS is gonna have a new singlleee! it's coming out on Oct 1st entitled "Happy Birthday" which is like O____O it's exactly a week after my bday that it comes out! i want that too! but i want the pacific DVD even more. CRAP!
i feel sad now.

oh, i wrote this on impluse yesterday. (my fic is on HOLD cuz i needa manage mah ideas)

"The way u run your fingers through your hair,
The way your eyes finish off at the creek of ur face when u smile,
The way your lips move in slow motion in my mind.,
The way u make me feel breathless.

Everytime I meet your eyes, your oh so inviting eyes,
is as if my heart was being grasped by you.
The addiction it brings, making me crave more.
I hate how your husky voice melts in my mind,
leaving a soft gentle mark, making it impposible to forget you.

A simple smile coming from you, gives me goosebumps that lasts the whole day.
Thinking of you at all hours of the day, making me smile for no reason,
just by something you said casually.
People think i'm mad, but i think I'm in love.

I feel hopeless when it comes to you,
but without you I'm lifeless.
You bring me joy in which leads me to loneliness at the thought of never having you.
What am I to do?
When you leave me breathless.''
by Jadey, for Jadey.

Sorry it was BORRRIIING ur minds out =D
sorry if it was bad, lame, sappy, wadeverYOUcallit.

i'm getting FAT FAT FATT!
WHY DID THE SCHOOL HOIDAYS PASS SO FAST?!! O____O
i hate form 4! lalaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~!
off to continue projects! buuuhhh byee~!

KLCC . LOT 10 . Pavillon . Sg. Wang and Times Square.

2008-08-18T08:35:00.000-07:00

Ahh yesterday was fun =DDD
Went to AT LEAST 5 shopping centres! is that awesome or what? but it IS tiring! haah~!

well, i met mah wonderful Michelle Tan Mei Xue in KL Sentral. i was early O.O i hated being early. Anyways, from there we headed to KLCC! and everything was wad the fag expensive. as usual coming from KLCC. oh well. the main reason i wanted to go there was cuz me wanted to but Shige-related mags. but i only found 1. which cost me RM 28.10. well worth it when it came to shigeness lovee! the mag i REALLY wanted to buy was unavailable which was such a disappointment. OHWELL! at least i got 1 which is better than nth.

look at all the JE. ESP SHIGEE! and a lil dose of Daiki.

After KLCC, and a RM2 nasi lemak eaten by Michelle which was OMG expensive if u considered it's puny lil size. oh.. and like 6 rotiboy's they were FRESH from the oven and omg YUM. but filling. so we ate that while we walked GODKNOWS how many kilometers before we reached Pavillon. and we asked many many random street workers who partially freaked us out =DD oh, and my phychollogical (no idea how to spell that. Behold my lameass spelling skills) blisters were back in action once again. they cease to amaze me. on the way to pavillon, me and Michelle were singing like 2 underaged drunked girls on steriods. =D well, not really but it sounds cooler that way! swt. hha!

after entering pavillon, lot 10 and sg. wang for like 10mins each, we went to times square.
there, we saw many goth wannabe's and lolitas. some were pretty amusing. i dun mean to be evil and just plain insulting, but guys who don't know their way around eyeliner should NOT touch adult makeup. those wannabe kiddies =D ahhh.. i've been on evil mode since yesterday. i guess seeing Michelle brought out the evil in me.
ANYWAYS, we went in to this goth/lolita shop (apparently there are MANY in TS) and they sold some pretty cool stuff! that coming from plain old me says quite alot! haha. they had these maid cosplay stuffs which in my eyes were pretty cute. but once again, i saw some kiddy wannabe's who wanna "rebel" but failing miserably and end up looking like SL** oh well. OHMYGOSH! i'm on supah evil mode today! *beware*
oh, i went off my point again. In that shop, we saw the cutest thing ever! well, in MY point of view. *ahemWHOCARESWHATYOUTHINK* it was this life sized mutated bunny(?) okay, i'm not making it sound as appealing as it is. LOLS. but it IS choooo cute! and Michelle was like a tiny being, so, when she used it, it was as big as her. which was he cutest sight i ever saw! SHHhhh! dun the her i called her cute. She's KILL me. thank God she doesn't read blogs =DD
oh yeah, that thingy cost like RM59 which is like serious cash for 2 16year-olds. but i paid half(or more than half which ever way u see it) RM30 as her birthday gift. Never spend so much for a friend ever! but She's worth it ne! i've known her 9years! only fought once (or so she says) but even SHE doesn't remember what we fought about! THATISSOCOOL. here's what it looks like. i'm telling u it's seriously cute! maybe i'm demented in a way *evil smirks*

Our attepmt to strangle the mutated bunny! as u can see, it brought the lil kid in me out =DD

After that i went to her house to chill till my mum came and get me. Time spent out of the house : 14 hours. OH btw, NEVER leave or enter KL (by train or car) between like 5.30-6.30pm. it's like havoc! 3 monorails passed us before we could be squished on to the 4th one! and some gang got separated from their friend. how sad. boo hoo. i was seriously squished like a sardin in a can. it was like omgahhhh much ppl. and there was this malay lady in front of me who (i dun wanna be mean but) had a big ass and it was PUSHING me. and it was awkward. *sigh*

that's the end. buhhh bye.

I'm bored.

2008-08-17T07:29:00.000-07:00

I HATE CR! it's so laggy nowadays! i can't load anything decent! OMGAH!

Today, i went swimming!!!
like 30 laps. but when i got out, i wasn't tired. until now, i'm only a lil sore. =DD *proud*
i'm getting stronger! as Shige would say =P
after that, i came home, showered and we went straight out! i didn't even have time to sit down.
we went to the food fair again. but this time i went with my mum. we got lost on the way there. and it was chooo congested even though the place was like HUMOUNGOUSSSEURUEOUROPUOUOP!! big enough u need a trem ride to see everything. it's just a frigging food fair! why does it needa be so big?! anyways, by the time we got there, there wasn't much left to be bought so it was a friggin failure and we came home. and here i am. exhausted to the point of my-ass-doesn't-wanna-get-off-the-chair =X

I'm going KLCC tomorrow! OH YEAH. happie Jadey!
well, that's it. i've nothing else to say. soo here's Shige's NEWEST pic.

does he not look hot with his blondeness? i dunno why eveyone doesn't like it. i mean, yes, it's not as HAWT as his black. but it's still Shige! and to me he looks hot no matter what. sooo what if i'm bias!
he's hot, that's that =DDD
i can seriously stare at this pic FOREVER! gah. *drools*

okay! byyyeee~!

The start of hols~!

2008-08-15T04:08:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : Some random NEWS clips!

Wednesday, I went to duuno wad agro fair or something like that! and OMG. the food was like WALAO! so muchie! and it was cheap-ish! i ate till... i felt guilty! sigh~!
on that day, me, QL and TH made a FISHY ALARM! haha like tesshi and shige in the Never Ending Wonderful Story DVD when Koyama was sick. yeah! the alarm went beep beep beeeeppp everytime she was around! inclusive or finger movement!
I dun mean to me mean, but i just can''t help it!

YESTERDAY!
the only thing worth mentioning about yesterday was that some bushes and trees opposite my apartment caught fire! and it took fire fighters like 1 and a half hours to put it out!

they're causing so SERIOUS air pollution ne!!

TODAY! today is a very eventful day~!
After school, we had a farewell party for the form 5 librarians who were gonna graduate! sadly, only 1 of them could show up! WAH sad =[ haha! and there was FOOOODDD! macaroni! i never knew my canteen could even make food that didn't taste bad! it's a miracle~! oh by the way, i do NOT support the food price increase in the canteen. oh well! all the more reason for me to be on diet! hah. ANYWAYS, back to that, we had to put everything in doggy bags and FORCE ppl to brong them home. then me, Ei Jane, TH and FISHY, had to clean up by ourselves! Pn. Alison owes me something GOOD to make up for this! like... like... SUSHI! yeah! we had to run from one place to another cuz of our school's moke-no-sense building plan. and by the time i HIKED up my mountain to get home, my face was RED! APPLE HEAD!

after that, since i felt guilty for eating soooo much and snackking on junk food AGAIN. twice in 1 week. (actually everyday! since i'm the kind to give in to temptation) so i went swimming! but after like 15mins of that, sadly, my leg cramped up. AHH... such a weakling. no wonder i'm FAT! and so, here i am telling my story. after i got bored of watching gokusen. seriously, gokusen 1 and 2 are the same! after 1, i found 2 boring! SAD! wanted to see Jin in action oter than in Yukan club.

OMG! the post today is LONG! haha oh well =DDD
u ppl still love me rite? RITE? (say yes or you'll have to explain to mister fists)
here is the pic i owe you!

ahhh.. me and mah Shige ai. SPREAD THE LOVE! or not! i want him for meee!

BYEEE~!

p.s. today is the start of my week long hols! hence the title! but OMG! the teachers HATE us!! i've not1, not 2, but SIXXXXXXXX projects due by the end of the hols!
THEY HATE ME
THEY HATE ME
THEY HATE ME!

Phone survey. i'm bored!

2008-08-14T03:04:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : Gokusen 2 ep 1.2

since i'm choooo bored, here!

1. The phone brand?
→K770i

2. What are the last 3 digits of your mobile number?
→ 995

3. What does the 2nd message in your inbox say?
→ elele... lol. i gtg, lisan. LOLS

4. Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M?
→ Magdalene (apparently!)

5. Who's the last person you rang?
→ My aunt! i call her mummy!

6. Who was your last missed call from?
→ MUM!

7. Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D?
→ David O.O (why did it HAVE to be him?) lols!

8. What does the last message in your inbox say?
→ From rebecy using her mum's phone.
Jade! i'm making u a girl doll instea. ha.ha. Becky speaking! (no way in hell u're doing that!!!)

9. Who comes up under J?
→ Jimmy, Jimmy2, Jin Mun, Jin Mun's house, Juinn Bin, Jocelyn, John, Jonathan, Jonathan Hau, Jpseph, Joyce, Joyce's house, Jun Kai, Jye Miin, J-free. THERE, done =D

10. Go to your Sent Items - what does the 10th message say?
→ From Michelle.
Why did u have to go? haha. You left me all alone with him. I almost spilled stuffs. Haha. den i dc then he din reply dy. Haha. (we were talking bout chatting with some1 on msn)

11. Who's the 4th person who comes up under S?
→ Set Lee. it was her birthday yesterday! happie belated bday!

12. Who's your network provider?
→ EH? maxis, hotlink and digi. i've 3. but for this, maxis =D

13. How many messages are currently in your inbox?
→ 310

14. What do you have as your background?
→ A dark green theme. but a drawing of shige's name on my hand as the wallpaper. it's choo nice! (not braging!!!) i'll upload it sometime! hahah.

15. Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R?
→ Rini CR (my CR bud)

16. Who do you have on speed dial 3?
→ no one in particular =D

17. If you're on Pay as you Go, how much credit do you have?
→ nope!! but my hotlink number has like 18bucks left.

18. Who's the first person who comes up under C?
→ Cai Ying

19. How many bars of signal do you currently have?
→ FULL! 5 =]

20. What do you have as your main ringtone?
→ NEWS - Rainbow. i hear yamapi everytime my phone rings!

OMG! u can see how bored i am huh?

BYEEE~!

Rebecky post!

2008-08-11T06:12:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : TnT PV - Ho! Summer!

Thxx to Claudy! i'm not TnT-fied. yeah~ Tackey and Tsubasa.

I went shopping with rebecky last saturday. and apparently, i'm lazy to upload pur vain pics into the com, so u'll be left here looking at a black screen with words =] we left after the sky went dark! thank God no1 tried to hurt mah lovely lil becca-chan while she was running all the way home. or so she said =]
we watched 21. and for the 1st time in a LONG time, i had no bias feeling about korean ppl! YEY aaron yoo aka choi =D yey?
i went to post my letters to Jennifer and Jemae too. it cost me like 6 bucks for both ne! WALAO. i feel oh so poor. but i was really REALLY happie i got to eat a cream puff! after much consideration and death of many many brain cells. ahh. mah poor brain cells.

SUNDAY! was churchie day! unfortunately, i didn't go. I went to MV again. and i was exhausted cuz of the day before. It's hard keeping up with a hyper rebecky! I FEEL OLD! hah! i'm almost 16~! WEE! it's like.. 23 + 20 days to go.
I HATE TIAN HUI! she quit add math tuition. cuz apparently, she doesn't need it O.O HOW SMART CAN U BE?!?!?! gah! and 3 certian ppl were making hella lot of noise that i wanted to slap them! and this coming from me, the loud mouth Jadey. that alone says alot.

TODAY! was fun-ish~! we skipped add maths thanks to librarians meeting. apparently, teacher is mad at those who didn't go for duty in which i did 100%! i'm not making this up! oh no, teacher wrote and made calculations! YEY! we all know, Jadey rocks =DDD
after that, QL, TH and JM came to do out bahan buangan project. and a certain someone was making a big fuss outta nothing!! CRAZYH FISH! go die =P

CHILL =]
anyways, i got rid of mah laziness and brought to u by becca and Jadey, PICTURES! vain pics!

CHEESE~!

apparently, she doesn't wanna take pics with ugly me. She says she's too pretty! LOLS.

now, she just plain hates me!

u can guess i was pretty HIGH in that pic =D either that or rebecky bribed me =D

NOW, i hate u rebecca, WHY oh WHY did u have to tag me? i've no1 to tag? kesian aku larh~! apparently, i didn't do the last one. so i'm forcing myself to do this =D i'm such a good friend.

1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!!

1. I sing in the shower =D it's fun!

2. I can't think of weird things that no one knows about me cuz i'm weird and everyone knows everything.

3. I always tend to think that when i say something that i want to happen, i'll jinx it for sure. even tho i know it's not true. but i always end up cursing myself =D

4. I tend to like to balence things from my left and right hand. like, my left hand did this how many times, my right hand too. WEIRD!!

5. I never do my HW. it's like a mountain now. and it's still growing. I'm also the reasom why QL is as lazy as she is nowadays.

6. Like Rebecky, i talk to myself too! it's like i debate with myself about stupid thigs O.O

7. I can;t dream no matter how hard i try! except yesterday! i had a Shige dream1UWAH! hotness can kill =P

8. I can spend hours just blankly staring at television show repeats and still continue watching.

9. i'm very afraid of REBECCA loving. me. her love scares me! but i love yeah too!

10. I secretly feel guilty for liking other guys other than my ever lover Kato Shigeaki.

11. I hate ppl who "ban ke ai" when sometimes i do it myself.

12. I loveeee the smell of petrol but i guess that ain't that weird.

13. I HATE the smell of newspapers. but other ppl say they dun smell nothing.

14. I got lazy to blog ever since exams but continue cuz i dun wanna lose to my laziness.

15. I feel sad when no1 bohers about my blog. esp when i put effort in it.

CAN I HAVE A 16? i just thought of 1!

16. I countdown days to my birthday even though it's far away cuz it makes me feel SPECIAL.

TAGGING :
-Claire
-Jemae
-Charm
WHOEVER la! since i've no1 to tag.

byee~!

Compy!

2008-08-07T01:54:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : Gokusen ep10

Today was such a normal day, other than the fact that it was the singing comp! Wee? it finally came. The mic system was horrible. but I still thank Fang Han for his nobelness to volunteer to do the PA system (even if it WAS his job) i still thank him. so, Thankies FH!
after today, i am officially so OVER Say it Again by Marie Digby and Stop by Spice Girls. The winners won't be announced till God know when. so i'll be here waiting patiently. I have absolutely no hopes of winning just as long as SHEEE doesn't win =] i'm not evil, just... =D But seriously! she annoys me! with her "flirty" moves (only SHE thinks looks good) and her "acting cute" futher more her FAKEEEEE voice, it kills me everytime i have to listen to it.

I've had 2 wrong numbers in one day. boy, my house is easy to misdail. i had to get up TWICE to pick up the friggin phone. Ahhh.. the lazyness =]

I'mma fail in mah life. This time, my exams grades were the worst in mah whole tiny lil life. Ahhhh.. how said. i've fail mah national language. not that it's even an important thingy to learn to me. if i had the choice, i would have dropped it WAYY before i dropped chinese. but tooo bad! i live in MALAYSIA. hence, the malay. sigh.

I'm beeen sooooo moody lately. Pissing everyone off and being pissed off by everyone. so dun mass with jadey. probably have something to do with the shitty exam results, but u never know eh? and also the DUMB whoever it is (most probably Khoo Kah Meng) in sulted my Shige. i will KILL whoever it is when i find out. If u dun like him, i dun care, just get out of my face. PLEASE. before i snap ur neck =D okay?

and THAT'S hoe pissed i am. GAH. i need shige pics to chill.

Life is beautiful.When i see shige pics.

Byeee~!

Broken Dreams - Part4

2008-08-04T01:36:00.001-07:00

-Broken Dreams-
Part 4

She stepped through the diner doors searching for a familiar face. There it was, his wonderfully charming bright smile surfaced again, it brought on her own smile. He was sitting at the booth in the back of that old town restaurant, right beside the jukebox. As she greeted and sat down facing him, there was a sense of shyness in their tones. But soon after awhile of chatting and the sweet smell of pancakes in the background, their barriers were let down and there was this instant attraction between them. They both knew it, felt it.

She looked at him with these pure blue eyes that she had and noticed something that she hadn't noticed in him before. He had these cute strategically placed dimples that made his smile all the more alluring. Besides that, she could also see his perfectly built body as his shirt rests gently on his skin. She finally realised, he was gorgeous. Coincidentally, the jukebox next to them played a familiar tune, it was their song, Kate and Tim's song. With that, a boulder of guilt was crushing her. She thought :"What am I doing?!" She stood up and ran out the diner. Accidentally knocking a waitress in a tacky pink outfit spilling milkshake everywhere. She continued running. Sean, shocked, stood up and chased after her.

Unfortunately, he was too late. She took off in her ford truck, leaving him staring at the dust trail left behind. She drove and drove as more tears crippled down her face. phone calls and text messages from Sean kept her phone beeping which gave her an even more intense growth of guilt. He was worried, she was scared.

Writers note : GOMEN for the lateness. my brain was abducted by aliens O.o

UPDATES

2008-08-01T18:19:00.000-07:00

currently watching : Gokusen ep1

I haven't blog in 10 days O.O beeenn omg busy. and emo.

1. my exams were SHIT. i've fail miserably. apparently the worst i've done in mah whole life! YEY? haha! fangirling has affected my grades. but who could resist? it's SHIGEEEEE!!! my future husband! *dreams*

2. my stories was put to hold due to exams. will continue writing as soon as my imaginary writers block fades =] YESH. and also when i have the time to.

3. watched BATMAN last thursday and it wash omg! haha! the guy whose name slipped my mind, was soooo scary after the fire. it's likt you could practically SEE his skeleton. talk bout freaky. you could get nightmares with this. haha! my fren was like, are u sure this is Umum? haha! special effects rock~!

4. Yesterday was a MIRACLE. i got home at 12.40pm? and i started cleaning immediately! wow! i think the failure of mah grades got to me. i've gone insane. i cleaned for 5hours! and on an empty stomach. COOOOL! by the end of that, i became a veggie and was numb all over. ahhh, the after effect of cleaning obsessively. i will remember that =[ heh!

5. i'm back to dramam watching! YESH! Gokusen was put on hold for so long. it was growing mushrooms. can't believe i haven't watched the 1st season even. and now there's even a season3 O.O i'm SLOW! GAH!

6. Today is John's bday i think. but enough of that, it was Charm-nee's bday last thursday! the same day i went for batman. she's 18 now =]=]=]

and i think that would be all of mah uneventful 10 days =]
byyyeee~!

i wanted to upload pics but blogger hates me. so too bad. blogger is getting worse each day for me. GAH!

SHIGEness love <3

2008-07-21T02:19:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : My boss, my hero last ep!

OMG. I'm totally slacking with my drama watching. it has been 2(?) weeks and I've yet to finish this O.O that is UBARRRR slow for my pace!! wtf!! sooo insane.
oh yeah! i can watch Papa to musume already!! omfg!! i can get HIGH just by watching ep 2 over and over again. watching kenta-senpai sooo makes my day. here's what i came up with :

Shige + Shy, HOT, athletic schoolboy
=
Jadey + lots and LOTS of fantasies <3

WAHHH! just thinking about it O.O *wipes drool off keyboard* ahh yes, i become a not-so-regular-teen when it comes to shige and his supreme hotness.
I admit my fangirlness MAY be a lil too obsessive. but i can't help it. it's SHIGE. <3 <3 <3 SHIGE mode ONNN with a lil dose of teenage hormones =D

okay okay, now i'm here to promote the return of my FRIENDSTER! yey? well, those who actually CARE already knows that my old account got hacked by idiots. why? ask the freaking losers with no life. WHAT USE IS THERE TO HACK A FS ACC ANYWAYS?! lowlifes =P crawl in a hole and rot why don't yea.. *shrugs* anyways, please click here.
those with fs account and DON'T add me? ahhh beware.
those who choose to view me, beware also for I have a biggie pic of me fugly face there. yeah =] and everything there is SHIGEness LOVE =]

REBECCA, awww.. u're pissed. HUGS?
they are full of love and... and... KOODIESSS!! yeah.

Happie sweet 16 ENG LEONG for u are old now. actually, 2 more days till ur bday but i wish u luck with old age! yeah =]

here you go. drool ur hearts out <3
well, if u're not gonna, i'll be happie to =]

Random thought of the day :
PUDDINGGG!!$^%^&%#^@%^$~$E give it to me or DIE!
(just for my one and only fan, SAMMIE!)

EXAMS should die too.
QUOTE Giselle "DOWN with school, UP with JE!"
no stealing please, i'm only using this once! so u can't use it either.

HUMILIATION to the MAXX!

2008-07-17T05:25:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : My boss, My hero ep7 ; yayayah and NEWS extras

I am BAKA!

today me, QL and TH went to sunway for fun.
but we met this celebrity or wadever he is. show host? lols~ anyone know ho chak? yeah. that dude. de kinda leng zhai-ish one. but very sot one. yeah him. we saw him.
At 1st i didn't realise it was really him until we met him agian in so shop and we kinda became stalkers subconsciously. it's not like we wanted to! we were brain-washed!! anyways, we were so called following him and when we were like wanna give up dy, he make a stunt to get rid of us. and now i feel sooooo EMBARRASSED! yeah. i hate myself and him. mostly him =[

i wanted to scream at him : WE'RE NOT STALKING YOU, U IDIOT! but too late. humiliation rained upon us.
here is a failed attempt on taking his pic

If you can even see anything but blurness. I HATE YOU ho chak guy >.<

ANYWAYS, the rest of the day was fun. 1stly, in school me, QL and TH went all insane with the mother-daughter-son stuff. apparently, TH likes to shower with her bro O.O zomg. i raised such perverts =] haha! she even admitted it! talk bout craziness! also in sunway, us 3 had loadsa fun! besides the ho chak guy thing that makes me wanna jump off a building >.< here are pics to prove it?

Normal =]

Me as a fish version.

Roller coaster/matrix version.

TH!!! WEEEEE~ tian tian! my daughter!

there you GO!! okay. i need help! some cheer me up ppl! i'm sad >.< BAKA!
well, that's all i feel like writing. Ja ne!

Officially CRAZED.

2008-07-16T03:37:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : My boss, My hero ep6

yes, as said so in the title, i went CRAZY today. oh no, not normal Jadey crazy. CRAZY Jadey crazy. just by that sentence, u can see that i'm not making sense which is a sign of craziness =D
I mean SERIOUSLY. i went looo loooooooooo today. and by doing so, i am now a mother of 4 and a half =]

1. Oldest son - Lim Choe Leng. (the taaaaaaalllll oh-too-smart one)
2. Oldest daughter - Soo Qiao Ling (the.... SUSU!!)
3. Middle daughter - Ho Tian Hui (the crazy one that went a lil crazier =])
4. The youngest daughter - Yeow Xiao Wei (the one half the size of any secondary student yet she's in form 1. therefore, she's half a daughter.)
5. The anak-angkat/kai lui - Hor Ei Jane (forced her way into my family)

btw, 3 of my sooooo-called kids are older than me. And yeah the father is none other than Kato Shigeaki. by my incredible imagination *twinkle*

That's the end of my very short post. Just wanted to inform everyone of my WONDERFUL family. esp the Shige part =D oh, and i lost in the game in PBSM. i suck at using a compass. DARN IT! lols. oh well =]

SUNWAY TOMORROW!! weeheeee!! can't wait =]

Ja matta ne! chao~

Daily dose of JADEY <3.

2008-07-15T01:14:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : My boss, My hero ep4

EXAMS are POSTPONED! yey for me =] cuz i have noooo plans on studying =]
haha~ but make no diff anyways. change from 21st start to 25th start >.< so far i have learnt nil since my last exams =] WHO DE HELL CAN TEACH ME BIO AND CHEM? darn mitosis and the-word-i-have-no-idea-how-to-spell =]

I LOVE shige.
here's a random lil gif for me and u to enjoy. mostly me <3

Credits to Jemae-nee! ARIGATOU~

i can't believe Shige's butai started yesterday and i'm MISSING it!! WTFFF~ *cries* i hate myselfff!! WAAA~ i'm missing his butai and his very very blonde hair <3 it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be~! lols. maybe i'm being bias (addicted to this word thanks to SUPPPAAHH CLAUDDSS) again~

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THURSDAY! weee~
gonnaa watch a movie and EAT! i think wendy's burgers are in mind =]=]=] WAHAHAH~ crazed Jadey =] Th and QL, beware of high-on-hormone-JADEY yeye!

okay okay, promised myself to make this post short. BYE!

Bunch of random thoughts

2008-07-14T05:03:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : My boss, My hero ep3

I have no idea why i'm still watching dramas cuz exams are next week and i'm supposed to study. Oh yeah, Tesshi KAWAIII~ that's why <3 haha. but not as <3 as SHIGE *drools*
and yes Rebecca, obsessed IS written on my forehead. SO WHAT?! jealous ah? >.<

EXAMS?! why the hell did de government create exams when i, the jadey all mighty, is sooo lazy? to torture me. that's why. EVIL government >.< who the hell approved it anyways? did they LIKE exams when they were young? if so, if i find out who, i will hunt you down and poke my pencils/mechenical pencils into u =] yes, i'm heartless <3

JADEY HAS BEEN SICKIFIED. =D
apparently, the brownie i ate to celebrate Shige's birthday? yeah that, it gave me a sore troat which in time lead to a fever =] all worth it since it was for Shige. once again, i declare my obsession. Ain't i just <3? Just wish i could have gotten sicker so that i could skip school. GAH sad.

THURSDAY! i'm sooooo waiting for yeah! TEEHEE! cuz me, Tian Hui aka PIGGIE and SUPAHH susu are going lepak-ing in Sunway Pyramid! why u ask? because it's fun.
WAHHH~ gotta save money tho~ i'm UBER broke and i still wanna go out with maah lovely Rebecca Ng Jia Yin (zomg. i think i forgot how to spell ur name!) well, that's what u get for not going out with me for so long. BOOHOO for you =]

Random thought of the day :
54+ 17 = 71 Days to my beloved SWEET 16 <3 i expect prezzies!

JA NE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIGE! <3

2008-07-11T00:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIGE!!!

yes, yes, the day is finally here. Shige's bday. i believe i'm more happy today than on my on bday! WOW! that proves how much i love him <3 WAHHAHA! i had brownies with milk. yes! actually i had brownie - no "s" i couldn't afford anything else. sad poor lil Jadey. and i also went around telling everyone in school it was shige's bday. yes, i'm insane =] isn't that just oh too cool? now, wouldn't you like to be me? YEAH~ i rock. so does shige. match made in heaven <3

HAHA yes! drool at my lousy attempt of drawing(?) AHHAAHAA! i missed the "N" in otanjobi. such a loser. thanks to Claire for pointing that out =] but the cake was cute =]=] TEEHEE! back to jadey normal mode if there is one >.<

omGOSH exams are like soo coming. don't feel like bothering. i will go about it like a normal day and FAIL! cuz of these stupid exams and lack of a valid non-expired passport, i can't go to singapore. SCREW YOU. gah.

THE SINGING COMP IS POSTPONED! to the 31st of July (charm's bday =])
WEEE! more time to care less. <3

Reminder for REBECCA NG, i'm still waiting for my shige-doll =]
and when are we gonna meet up? i haven't touched ur short hair yet! ahh.. i sound partially retarded. but oh well! =]

To everyone who is reading this, please leave a msg at the end of the beep. BEEEEEEP! go cbox it larh =P

SHIGE'S BDAY. in honour of his bday, i will not mess up everyones brains with my random thoughts. SEEE how nice i am? *sparkle* actually i'm just outta ideas cuz all i can think bout is shige's BDAY!! hope he's having fun =DDD

TOODLES!

Broken Dreams - Part 3

2008-07-08T03:57:00.000-07:00

-Broken Dreams-
Part 3

Driving her Ford truck on the narrow roads of the town, she had a blank look staring ahead at the cars in front of her. She turned a corner and stepped on the brakes as hard as she could, the burnt smell of tyres filled the air. he came out of nowhere, she almost killed him, their fates surfaced. She recognised him immediately and he asked if he could treat her for lunch for the trouble he caused. It was too hard to resist that inviting smile of his.

As they sat for lunch, there was an awkward silence in the air until they introduced themselves exactly at the same moment. 'I'm Kate/Sean' Another pause and then they both burst out into laughter. After that, they clicked and their friendship blossomed. They soon realised they had the same fate of being left broken and alone as their loved ones suddenly left. She found it easy to talk to him because of that. As she sat there telling her tale, she couldn't stop. Maybe it was because she hadn't talked to anyone about it before. She never let it out. So when the opportunity surfaced, she took it.

When they finally finished their stories, phone numbers were exchanged and they left their separate ways. Days passed and she realised she was constantly checking her phone. Every beep and vibration it made had her ignited. She was awaiting something. She thought she was out of her mind. Hoping for a stranger to text or call. She felt so much disappointment as every sound her phone made was not because of him. Just when she was stricken low, a text from him arrived. 'How about lunch?' =]

Writer's note : I'm sorry for continuing this cuz i know it's not that good. But Jemae-nee liked it and I'm doing this for her. yeah~ SPECIALLY for her =] =]

Shabu Shabu =]

2008-07-06T07:36:00.000-07:00

Currently Watching : nothing at all. What a miracle =]

OMEADETOOO Ruby Tang Yee Theng. you're officially really really old =] soon, u'll get white hair! weeee? lols. u're only 3months older than me at max =XXX haha.
I regret to say i failed to join u guys to catch a movie. but oh well, at least we ate SHABU SHABU ne? my very 1st time =]

here are PICS!

Bin Bin's stare freaks me out.
so does his stomach O.O Can eat so much yet so skinny. GO DIEEE!

4 drinking/eating faces. LOOK at Jk. his eating skills scare me O.O =XXX
I failed to get pics of Mr. Tea, Father and Biao Ge =] too bad >.<

OH yeah, btw, i hate myself today. I know i'm supposed to forget you cuz u treat me like shit. But WHY THE HELL ARE U STILL IN MY HEART? It's supposed to be filled with Shige ai. but u somehow always intrude it. gahhhh...
I will forget you
I will forget you
I will forget you =]

oh yeah, recently, all thanks to my dear friend Angela, i'm in a Arioka Daiki craze O.O
haha. him and his pink coloured hairclip are SOOOOOO adorable. makes me wanna squees him. he looks 15 but in fact, he's older than me. he's 17. LOLS~ haha. oh well =] at least i'm not a pedo (winks at SUPER CLAUDS) haha. dun worry! yuto is 15! i'll accompany you. we'll be crazed pedo's togeter *smiles*

btw, SUPER CLAUDS? I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUU! haha! yup! i do! =]

My 1st experience in shabu shabu made me completely BROKE. wad am I gonna do!?!! lols~ i still wanna go KLCC some more O.O ahhh... needa go beg on the streets for money sarting tomorrow =] but i'm SOOOO stuffed. my tummy is gonna BURST =]

Random thought of the day :
4 days to Shige's 21st bday! TEEHEE! can't wait!

Something Diff =]

2008-07-03T05:47:00.000-07:00

When nighttime creeps upon the city, and the moon dangling high above everything, her heart awakens at the all the possibilities of the dark nightfall.
She broke from her heavy stare at the fullmoon as she heard her door creek. Her fangs quickly surfaced as her expression changed.
She had this wild smirk as if she was in a battle, and winning. Completely different compared to the blank stare she had.
She crept quickly behind the door, careful not to ruin her element of surprise. As the figure slowly walked in, she pounced and screams were heard. Not regular screams, screams as though someone were being tortured slowly but assuredly. A scream so painful to hear, was music to her ears. You can see it in the victim's eyes, the life slowly being drained out of it.
When she was done, she let go of the body and it fell to the ground with a loud 'thump'. Absolutely lifeless.
In her eyes, excitement grew as she began to hunt for more prey. With the corpse lying there, she was livelier than ever.

-End-

Writers note : WEE~ my 1st non-shoujo related fic. Haha *pleased* even though it's not good, bare in mind that i AM a beginner? yoroshiku~

Broken Dreams - Part 2

2008-07-03T04:49:00.000-07:00

-Broken Dreams-
Part 2

She went about her life normally everyday revealing fake smiles to everyone around her, pretending everything was alright. She had to tell herself lies to get through each day. But then the unpredictable happened, he appeared. This new guy in her life, taking every inch of sadness away from her. She never thought she'd love anyone besides Tim, but he altered her fate, giving her hope and courage to move on.

Their story begins here. It was the end of spring and brown leaves started to fall creating an oasis of brown and yellow bliss on the ground. She walked into burger king for her shift on cashier duty and everything was just so normal. A deep voice then ordered something irregularly weird, a burger without anything. Just the patty and the bun. This made her curious enough to tilt her head a little higher and give the guy a second look. She looked up only to find an adorable smile flashed upon her. It was so warn the smile he shown. But other than that, he was nothing special. She gave him his order, he ate and left. After that she didn't even think twice about him anymore.

Until..

Writer's note. OMFG, this is too friggin corny. It's as corny as the name. I think maybe i'll suspend this =]

I need a VOICE.

2008-07-01T04:21:00.001-07:00

currently watching : Zettai Kareshi ep8

I'M ONLINE! to all the ppl that i've scared, >.<>.< LOL. well, the good news is that i'm here right? if it's bad news then WTH are u still doing here reading my blog? GET THE FRIGGIN LOST. lols~

Today, like and hour and a half ago, was the auditions for the singing comp. Boy, did i suck or what?! lol. no la, not to say suck, just that i sang wrongly like 3 times. yes THREE times!! lousy jadey~

AHHHH. i'm sleepy. very very sleepy.
i just realised something yesterday. i didn't go collect my money from kasturi. i attended their seminar and got 7A = RM70. my mum didn't tell me and there goes my 70bucks. WTF. i want my money!!!! BAKA.

I just realised i REALLY loveee my CR buds! seriously. everyone there is like awesome and talented and nice and lalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ i wish i could repay them! but i dunno wad to do >.< SIGH. there are too darn many to list down so U know who U are. if not, come and ask me *sparkle* weeee~

REBECCA. i dun care HOW u're gonna pull it off, no matter what, i WANT my shige doll ^^
and OMFG cheddar cheese flavoured mr. potato chips are like YUMMMM. buy me those too yeah? ARIGATOU!

Random thought of the day : We held each other in out arms and finally released. I began to stare into his gaze and GAHHHH pimples!!!! O.O

Busy. Busy. Busy.

2008-06-27T04:32:00.000-07:00

currently watching : Nurse Aoi ep4

How is Jadey?
BUSY. BUSY. BUSY. well, kinda~ and tired >.<
I have officially lost my voice. it's like GONE.
and the singing comp is like 5days away. O.O
OH WELL. sing with my horrible frog voice for all i care >.<
SHHHHH! don't let them hear meee! LOL

i'm really tired >.< but we did it!!
we finally agreed on a song.
Tata Young's crush on you.
but now, i can't sing it. OMFG WTH.

Yesterday, i went Pearl's house. We did some pretty crazy stuff for 4 teenage girls who were severely high on hormones. LOL. not really >.<
visit my CR page later. i'm trying to upload one of our crazy deeds there. LOL
we're seriously a bunch of sot po's.

Bday party at impian heights yesterday too~
Omeadetooo Yang Yik and Yong Lip. 2 best freinds who have the same birthdays. OMG. jealous.
All the guys except Kum Foong and Desmond went in the pool. More like PUSHED into the pool. KF and D, u guys missed out.
Me, Pearl, YT and WT were like 4 crazed ppl playin in the baby pool. Yes, deranged hormones.
left at 11pm and my mum wasn't even home yet. SAD JADEY.

Today = DISASTER
while everyone was bust having fun and making money, i was there standing feeling PISSED. WTF. That idiot. BAKA BAKA BAKA. irresponsible loser!
Oh, er, PM me for details.

YESHHH. monday is my LAST day of work. after that, i become 1 sad poor Jadey. prepare for jadey depression. yeah~ Seriously, what the hell am i gonna do without $$$?
Oh yeah, congrats to Jemae neee on passing the audition! Wiiihhhh~ now, you're one step closer to dancing for JinJin. RITE?! haha~! weeeeee~
Oh and to Claire, grats on ur successful performance *jumps*
REBECCA. i dun care HOW you do it, i WANT my Shige doll.. u promised! WINK WINK lols~
I'll be your friend!!! (you know who you are) weeeeee~

Random thought of the day :
*pulls pulls* EHHHH??! the bunny ears won't come off! I'm a BUNNY!

Broken dreams - Part 1

2008-06-25T06:07:00.000-07:00

-Broken Dreams-
Part 1
As she began writing, tears started pouring down her face when her feelings were surfaced. She wrote and wrote. The words, the things she had to say, they wouldn't stop as she hadn't told anyone about them. Her troubles, her worries, her sadness. It was all cooped up inside her small fragile heart.

Two long pages later, she was finally finished. She stared at the things she wrote , folded the papers and tucked them neatly in her drawer. Believing, praying, that her wounds would heal. Tears rolled down her cheeks again when she stared out the window seeing a beautiful sight. A rainbow after the rain as mew dews hung off the leaves of the trees. She thought 'why couldn't my life be this perfect?' She hugged her pillow tightly, drenching it with tears as she went into slumber.

She saw him in her dreams. With his broad perfect shoulders and his shiny bright smile. She ran towards him and hugged him as he gave her a warm hug back. She cried on his shoulders and told him how much she missed him barely able to make up a sentence with the way she was studdering because of her intense crying. A minute later she woke up and saw the moon outside her window, it was night. She washed off the dried tears on her face and slammed back into reality that she would never see him again. She fell apart and fell to the ground. Helpless, she couldn't do anything. She believed that without him, she was unable to breath.

p.s. HAHA. the name is corny but i had no idea what to put. This is my 1st fictional story in parts! yoroshiku onegaishimas~

Obaaasan memory.

2008-06-24T04:31:00.000-07:00

currently watching : Jeff Dunham Achmed's "jingle bombs" and Nurse Aoi ep3 and Hey!hey!hey! (NEWS as guests)
A lot, i know >.<
but i gave up on watching Nurse Aoi after 10mins into the show. too busy >.<

1. I said something mean to Sam today.
I regret it a little. just a LITTLE.
Seriously, he really pisses me offf..
So i was like, bugg offff (this is the nicer version)

2. THERE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A SEMINAR TODAY.
With that dissapearring, i had to go to class.
So instead, we help a teacher do stuffs.
FYI, Pn Malar hates us now.
Malar hijau? more like Malaria.
It wasn't like we didn't want to do the stupid thing u asked us to do properly, that frigging other teacher didn't want to accept the frigging stuff!
UGGGHHHH. Got scolded for nothing.
WTH. i don't even wanna give a damn anymore >.<

I don't remember wad happened today. Seriously.
Oh, i woke up late for school again. second time this week. which is bad since it's a Tuesday. O.O

Singing contest is nearing.
Song. Not. Yet. Chosen. Shit. Crap. !@%$##&*.
I'm waiting for my Shige doll rebecky! WAITING.
Oh, and my kitkat too...

3. I watched NEWS perform for de 1st time in like 2weeks? OMG.
I miss my Shige. HE'S TOOO FRIGGING PERFECT TO ME!

4. My CR GB's are slowing down.
That's just sad i tell you. SAD.
Oh! Omeadetoooo to Charm nee on ur new blog! weee~
and gooooood luck on ur performance claire!
even though you've to perform in THAT dress. sigh..

5. We did preperations for hari Koperasi (this friday)
I helped PSS, PBSM, English Society and..... nth more =DDD
but my class also selling stuff! i'll help... BUY. weee~
I want ppl to be able to visit my school la.
but actually, no one said they CAN'T.
so woots!

This past is too long and boring.
so, Random thought of the day :
If hairy men are sexy, according to SOME girls, does bigfoot have a girlfriend?

Add math tuition O.O

2008-06-22T05:03:00.000-07:00

currently watching : Brown sugar Machiato ep12
Yes, i've finished Liar Game already.
It ROCKED.
A total must-watch. >.< to me!
Weeeeee~
Masuda Shota, I WANT UR BRAINS.

I have nothing to watch today.
that's why as you can see,
i'm watching something not J-related.
YES, ur eyes are not deceiving you.

SHIGE, MARRY ME.
okay, enough of that.

Weeeeeeeeeeeee~
Today was my 1st day of addmath tuition.
Those who participated as follows:
Hor Ei Jane(the blurrrrr one)
Sarmela(I have no idea how to spell her last name. GOMEN)
Ho Tian Hui(The one who TOTALLY doesn't need to be there. u smartass >.<)
Loo Jye Miin(I dunno wad to write)
and yours truely.
Someone didn't make it this week, so i will not bother writing her.
i'm mean! Eh, so what?

EH PPL!
oh, okay, ghosts who visit my blog!
I need a good song! HELP ME.
if not, well, I won't be able to make a fool out of myself anymore!!
gah!!!

Oh well~ nth much happened today.
BORING.
I wanted to post another story,
but, i've been diagnosed with imaginary-writer's block.

Random thought of the day :
DRAW! 1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5.. 10.. BANG!!!!! there goes Mr. Potato Heads' head.

Becca! come and collect ur chips! if u don't mind eating funny lil Mr. Potato Head.

OH, btw, please pray for de ppl involved in the typhoon in phil~
MANY ppl are involved.
do YOUR part~

byeeeeee!

Etc. Etc.

2008-06-20T08:19:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : Liar game ep5.3
Yes, i'm THAT fast.

Once again, my head is killing because of lack of sleep.
Bang Bang Bang
I have decided to enter the singing comp!
Yes, Jadey is SINGING. So all u ppl there with weak hearts, stay away from SMKBPJ(A).
Speaking of the singing comp, i'm PISSED.
She actually thinks the whole world revolves around her. BAKA.
SHAMELESS is all i have to say.
u have oficially pissed of lil miss jadey.
swell job, loser.

BTW, liar game ROCKS OUT LOUD! to me >.<
That guy is SOOOOOO smart!
although i think everything that happens is pretty much predictable,
stiil, GAH!
awesome show! i recommend it!
well, u see, it revolves around this girl who so idioticly gets tricked into entering the liar game round after round. Yes, not just one round. so far, 3 rounds. NICE!
The guy, I WANT HIS BRAINS.
i seriously want it.

but hey! i didn't do so badly neh~
I got 6th place in 1st class!
Jadey finally accomplished something in her life.
Seriously, this is like de best thing i've done. Period.
i know i'm sad. but SO WHAT?!
mind ur own business.
quote the piggie(Jennifer) "i'm proud of the slow turtle!"
ah yes, the turtle beats that rabbit rite?

Happy birthday to Andi!!! i want CAKEEEEE ~ can i? Email it to me yeah?
You're 15!! omaedetooooo~ UGHHHH my bday is too far away.
SHABU SHABU WAIT FOR MEEEEEEE! yeah?
but somehow, i feel OLD. now what?

My schools' Hari Koperasi!
come come come!!
i'll be helping the librarians, PBSM, english society and 4UM stands.
GAHHH. busy jadey ne? so come and HELP me.
buy stuff from us! especially de library.
don't mean to be buyers but idk, just go there la~

Random thought of the day :
I want Mickey's GLOVE!! Those big white cartoon funny-looking 3
(or was it 4) fingered glove!!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

My September dream.

2008-06-17T03:18:00.000-07:00

Curretly watching : Last Friends ep7.1

Today was pretty much BOR-ING.
A day in the life of Jadey rite?

It's soo boring, it hurts.
LOL not really~
Just felt like saying that.

OMG.
I wanna have my bday at ShabuShabu.
Anyone wanna come?
SOOO far away~ SPETEMBER.
Come on sept! I'm waiting!

Oh oh!!!
English singing competition. Should I enter?
Some ppl say i should. Some say I shouldn't.
The worst is, someone said that I was bad but asked me to join. Giler. Your brain ROT already izit? BAKA.
Don't annoy me with your stupidity.
Like what happened in the superhero movie. If drake bell wasn't in it, i'd be PISSED. Money scammers.
Wonder why so many ppl liked it. BAKA. i'm so weird.
BTW, Jane said I wasn't boring. I'm here to say that YES I AM.
So now you know.

Can i ask something?
How am I supposed to live without allowence and my job? SHIT.
No money = No life.
I don't want that O.O
Anyone wanna sponser my ShabuShabu?

There you go. So now you know how boring it is to be me.
Random thought of the day :
Rambutans are hairy. Yes, HAIRY.

Bah. F student in 1st class.

2008-06-16T07:19:00.000-07:00

Currently watching : Last Friends ep7.2

Hey everyone! *wind blows* no one's here huh? Oh well, i'll talk to myself then.
Results are Shit. yes. SHIT.
At 1st i thought they were OKAY.
But nooooo~ they just HAD to fail my add math. RAWR. Wait till i mutate and eat you. See how u like that! STUPID.
me + failed add maths paper = WHOLE RANKING DESTROYED.
and wasted all my efforts. GILA. I was soooo happy at 1st!! Bullshit.
gahhhh.
Screw school. seriously. Why the heck do I even go for?
I mean, I don't listen in class EVER anymore.
I don't do my hw.
I don't give a damn.
WHY THE HECK DO I GO?!!

omg. i sound like a frigging F student. But i guess that's true with those stupid add math marks of mine. BAKA JADEY~
i find this statement awesome :
F student in 1st class.
YEHH, i broke a record. Jadey sugoi neh?

Oh yeah, today, Tian Hui got TL slippers for her bday and i'm going to rob her tonight. yes, i'm that desperate. I didn't get anything for my bday! *looks at her with jealous eyes* GAH.
STUPID PMR. 1 week after my bday. GAH.

so yeah.
that's bout it.
dun forget my random thought of the day :
Piakachu! i choose you!! Pika-chuuuuuu~ (actually, this was yesterdays one)

random thoughts of the day are also available on my CR profile click link on side of page NOW, yeah. NOW.

Him

2008-06-16T05:52:00.000-07:00

-Him-
I noticed him about a year ago. It hurt me to look at him, a lot. I would lie awake on my bed for hours thinking about him. Aching, Itching, yearning for what was possible. Unbearable yet wonderful. I was supposed to be used to it, not being noticed, not being wanted. I hated it but was used to it. When it came to him, I was unprepared.

Confused, insecure, unable to breathe, which was how he made me feel. I needed help. Something was wrong with me. I used to be calm, rational, laid back. He tipped me balance, swept me off my feet and caused me to fall off the edge. I didn’t like that feeling but I couldn’t stand not being able to see him either. I was lost.

My heart skipped at the sight of him. It was intense and never happened before. It was unfamiliar and unfair that he didn’t know what he was doing to me. It wasn’t fair. It wasn’t. The more I hated him, the more I couldn’t stand not being near him. Why couldn’t he see that? Help.

His smile gave me goosebumps. His scent made me want more. I didn’t intend to let it get this far, but it did. He was flawless to me, amazing, incredible, perfect. Somehow only I felt that way. It was weird that no one else saw that. Really weird because it was obvious to me. I smile when I see him laugh. It was a reaction I couldn’t control. Like a puppet being controlled by strings, I couldn’t control myself, my feelings. Crap.

It used to be enough just to look from afar. But I soon found myself wanting more. I wanted to know him, talk to him, him to know me. It became necessary, a need so bad I couldn’t think straight, focus. My name, I needed him to know it, say it, remember it. I needed it so badly.

I was moving soon. Knowing that I wouldn’t be able to see him anymore broke me. I knew I wouldn’t forget him no matter what, it was true. He was special, close to my heart. On the last day, I took one last long look at him, went home, and cried. I cried at the fact that he will never know because I couldn’t tell him, that, I loved him.

The End.

I hope you enjoyed this.
Thanks for reading.

My Friend

2008-06-16T05:40:00.000-07:00

Most of my friends have read this already. So if u haven't, BOOO you. There you go.

-My Friend-

I ran down the stairs when I saw her opening my front gate. She was beautiful. Imagine flawless skin, long dark hair, and big green eyes. She was my best friend you see, I knew her since forever. I let her in with a huge grin on my face. I was happy to see her. She always came to walk to school together. We would talk, sing and laugh all the way down the street to school. It was one of the best parts of the days.
It was a normal day. I never suspected anything to happen. Nothing was supposed to happen. I waited for her to come so we would walk to school together just like any other day. I waited and waited. She didn’t come. I called her house. A call I regret to have made. After someone picked up, I heard intense crying and screaming. I didn’t expect anything to happen. Maybe she was sick I said to myself. But I was unprepared for what I heard. I hung up unfinished, fell and cried uncontrollably. I barricaded myself in my room. Refusing to talk to anyone.

I woke up around dinner time to find my eyes bloated and red from all the sobbering. My heart ached when reality hit; I couldn’t stand the pain. I didn’t want dinner so I stayed in my room checking my mail trying to keep my mind off her. I turned my computer on to find a mail from her. I cried again. I read it slowly, over and over, refusing to acknowledge the fact that she wasn’t there anymore. I miss her.

I didn’t go to school the next day. I couldn’t bear going to school without her. It hurt. A lot. I looked myself in the mirror seeing something I didn’t like, but I couldn’t do anything about it. I couldn’t look at myself anymore. I ran to my desk drawer, searched through it like a desperate maniac. I grabbed the blade. I needed to distract myself from her. I stared at my wrist and I did it. I saw my hand bleed and I felt relief. It didn’t hurt as much as I needed it to hurt. But it gave me remorse.

The number of scars began to accumulate. I had to wear clothes with long sleeves, I didn’t care. I needed it. I began to run out of spaces to bleed on my arm. I didn’t like the different sourness it gave me when I overlapped a scar, so I had to keep looking for new places to cut. I moved on to my legs. I was addicted. I knew but didn’t care.

I finally went back to school after a week, and I hated it. It seemed meaningless without her. She was one of the reasons I worked hard. I competed with her. Now there was no point. The empty desk next to mine kept reminding me of how she wasn’t there. It was excruciating. At that moment, I rested my head on the desk and began to cry.

A year passed since that day, I stopped hurting myself but the scars keep reminding me of her. She isn’t here anymore. But she will always be with me. I am starting live my life again. Without her. It feels lonely and bare but I am getting through it believing she’s still with me. I will always believe that. Always. Because she was my best friend, is my best friend and will always be my best friend.

The End.